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Everyone seems so sad in their lives right now?
why is that?
sure, we're all going to leave each other and high school in a few months. but not for forever
sure, colleges are getting ready to accept and reject us. but we'll get in somewhere and enjoy where we go.
sure, relationships, whether friendly or intimate, get hard and not as easy to maintain as people change. but we have our whole lives to live. we make new friends, and kiss new people.
sure, we're all changing, some for the better, some not. but we must all remember who we were and how much we love each other, and we must keep these friendships. at least til the day i graduate and look at richmond one last time from my rearview mirror.
hopefully, my whole life.
i love you.
But my real question is, why am i so happy when everyone else is so sad?
sure, i hate henrico, but i'm having fun there anyway.
sure, im scared to apply, but i know i'm smart and i'll get in somewhere
sure, i have a cute boy that likes me, but who knows where it will go.
sure, im changing. and continuing to change. we're all changing together, yet growing seperately.
i thought today about how old i felt. not like a teenager. not like a college student. no.
i felt like an adult. i know how to deal, and i'm sick of the bullshit that surrounds the supposed age that places me in society.
i am old enough to date someone 3 years my senior. i am old enough to make my own decisions. i am old enough to get 3 piercings.
i am old enough to live. i am old enough to love.
and so is everyone else i know. we are all mature, we are also all teenagers. someone once decsribed me as "wise beyond my years."
and i am. but i make mistakes that i'm learning to accept
my mom still makes mistakes. and shes about 35 years older than me. and sometimes im more mature than she is.
point being, we are all growing up. sometimes you need to forget that technology exists and live in society where people actually talk about how they feel towards people. i love you. i hate you.
the truth is, these words mean nothing to me without emotion in your eyes and the movement of your mouth and the intontation of your voice.
lets hear each other.
lets just listen.
why is that?
sure, we're all going to leave each other and high school in a few months. but not for forever
sure, colleges are getting ready to accept and reject us. but we'll get in somewhere and enjoy where we go.
sure, relationships, whether friendly or intimate, get hard and not as easy to maintain as people change. but we have our whole lives to live. we make new friends, and kiss new people.
sure, we're all changing, some for the better, some not. but we must all remember who we were and how much we love each other, and we must keep these friendships. at least til the day i graduate and look at richmond one last time from my rearview mirror.
hopefully, my whole life.
i love you.
But my real question is, why am i so happy when everyone else is so sad?
sure, i hate henrico, but i'm having fun there anyway.
sure, im scared to apply, but i know i'm smart and i'll get in somewhere
sure, i have a cute boy that likes me, but who knows where it will go.
sure, im changing. and continuing to change. we're all changing together, yet growing seperately.
i thought today about how old i felt. not like a teenager. not like a college student. no.
i felt like an adult. i know how to deal, and i'm sick of the bullshit that surrounds the supposed age that places me in society.
i am old enough to date someone 3 years my senior. i am old enough to make my own decisions. i am old enough to get 3 piercings.
i am old enough to live. i am old enough to love.
and so is everyone else i know. we are all mature, we are also all teenagers. someone once decsribed me as "wise beyond my years."
and i am. but i make mistakes that i'm learning to accept
my mom still makes mistakes. and shes about 35 years older than me. and sometimes im more mature than she is.
point being, we are all growing up. sometimes you need to forget that technology exists and live in society where people actually talk about how they feel towards people. i love you. i hate you.
the truth is, these words mean nothing to me without emotion in your eyes and the movement of your mouth and the intontation of your voice.
lets hear each other.
lets just listen.