Self accomplishement
I'm feeling a sense of Self accomplishment after tonight, it was my last night at school. It felt odd walking out the doors of that school knowing I never have to go back.. some emotion took over in my head like, Wow... I actually accomplished something && finished something in my life.. Now if only I can get everything else together. It took me along time to get everything done, && I busted my ass to do alot of work to get done by November, but I finally did I just wanna run around without my head but mostly I just want to be proud of my self && all I have actually done. My teachers even came uop to me && wished me the best , gave me hugs. it felt good because no one ever recognizes my accomplishments && i know i've said accomplisments like 20 times already but it feel just that damn good. As for life outside of school I'm doing really well over the summer I met a awsome guy named Tom who has compeltley changed my outlook on certain things in life. I never dreamed I could have so much in common with someone && feel that good being around them, it is so ironic I just keep jynxing myself saying something is bound to go wrong. You get used to it when things do, that its just waht you expect to happen, but so far so good && I wouldn't trade it for the world no mater the circumstance, because honeslty who else is going to put up with my randomness && off noises && wierd ways of being... No one. My point is or the first time in 3 years I'm fucking totally happy, && I feel complete ever tho theres so much more to build off this expierence as time goes on, I'll learn more.. and acquire more love for that person as well. You now I never really was into all that love shit I relaly still am not I just have a better appreciation for some of it now ... now that I have a reason to live in it , or live through the words... I don't know what I plan to do now that im done with everything.. people think I should go to college but I just don't feel as if I am smart enough or have the capabilities to do so.