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ok i am gonna do my best to update this every day or just as much as possible. well last night sucked...i felt so sick. i hate migrains!!! they make me just wanna smash my head into a wall. i went to walmart and stole all these patches and creams hoping it would help but then i used way to much and spent the night throwing up in the bathroom. i called the doctor yesterday and the soonest she could get me in is in 2 weeks!!! i can't take 2 more weeks of this pain!!!! so me and my husband have been fighting so much lately...he knows exactly how to make me cry...jerk! ...im so sick of it. he wont even let me work or do anything on my own...its so boring just staying home watching tv all day every day...i am beginning to hate tv! i wish i could just go out and start a life of my own instead of living for everyone else...
there has been this one question stuck in my head lately...are things supose to be this bad? honestly i thought that the day i got out of my parents house things would start looking up instead of going to opposite way. i am even more worse off then when i was living under their roof. why do things happen the way they do?
i am so tired of dodgeing my parents calls and text messages...i wish i could just grow a big enough back bone to tell them to fuck off. they have no freakin idea how much they have hurt me...how much this pain will never be replaced! and how much i'll never be good enough for them. i just wish they would get the point that if i don't answer and if i don't text back...its for a reason! and to just leave me alone and let me live my life!!!
on a more better note...its so nice being back here...surrounded with people that understand the way i feel and are going through similar things. i haven't had people to talk to like i can here and its incredibly nice!!
there has been this one question stuck in my head lately...are things supose to be this bad? honestly i thought that the day i got out of my parents house things would start looking up instead of going to opposite way. i am even more worse off then when i was living under their roof. why do things happen the way they do?
i am so tired of dodgeing my parents calls and text messages...i wish i could just grow a big enough back bone to tell them to fuck off. they have no freakin idea how much they have hurt me...how much this pain will never be replaced! and how much i'll never be good enough for them. i just wish they would get the point that if i don't answer and if i don't text back...its for a reason! and to just leave me alone and let me live my life!!!
on a more better note...its so nice being back here...surrounded with people that understand the way i feel and are going through similar things. i haven't had people to talk to like i can here and its incredibly nice!!