freefalling fuck
all this negative emotion flowing through my veins and drowning my eyes in their dark veil much like the starless night sky is getting me thinking. maybe life isnt all its built up to be. why live a life with nothing but shadows as your friends. sitting on a park bench i am joined by a stranger generous enough to share his two sense. he tells me to stand up and live. he tells me life is what you make it. and i blinked to find him gone when the curtains were pulled ajar once more.
walking back through love and laughter i've never felt more out of place with my hood up and head down. i finally come to my cell and drop the antecdote yellow and bright as the sunshine. it hurts to look at the sun, and it hurts to rely on the sunshine for the slightest ray of life to be brought into you.
i'm hanging onto you so tight, i dont want to die.