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i am up to 100mg a day of zoloft now. today was my third consecutive day of taking that amount. i thought that yesterday i noticed a change in my attitude but then today i had the same amount and i didnt feel anything remotely better than how i felt prior to me taking zoloft. so idk, maybe i still have to wait for it to get all in my blood stream or whatever.
another change in my life is that i decided to be a pescatarianas of april 13.so actually today is the mark of one month. happy anniversary self. if you dont know what this is, it's a vegetarian diet including fish. thats been a little bit rough on me but i'm hangin in there. i'm gnna hit up native sun sometime soon and see what they have to offer. i had a bean burger thing at chili's the other night with haley and that wasn't even decent. i had about 2 bites and called it quits.
so with this new medicine and this new diet now, i've been feeling a bit different. people noticed me losing weight and i'm sure that's in part to my new choice of diet. and i also have been feeling somewhat weak/sick. i'm not sure if it's due to the medicine and is just a passing phase, or if it's because i'm not getting the needed nutrients in order to stay healthy. i've been meaning to start taking vitamins everyday for however long i stay pescatarian, but of course i haven't gotten around to it. i might just go as simple as the flintsone vitamins. figure i could handle those. lol.
today at work i got pranked probably the worst i've ever been pranked before, at least at work. i was so humiliated. paul, our sushi chef, approached me and said that he and bruce, our co-owner, had decided that daniel, nick, and myself(all waiters) had become friends and are letting our friendship get in the way of work. (i.e. talking when we should be doing other more productive things). so they decided that they would offer each of us either the choice of keeping our job, or taking a 1000 dollar check and quitting, because they "never fire anyone". so i thought about it, and figured i'm already trying to get a job elsewhere and have applied at my bank, so i said ok, i'll take the money. he said alrite, shook my hand and said i can pick it up tomorrow. i stayed in that room for a little bit and then walked out to pointed fingers and laughing people. it really sucked. i turned rite back around and just sat there thinking about how stupid i was. i just told my employer that i was looking for a new job. "i'm fucked" is all i could think. but nothing seems to be amiss. they didnt get onto me or anything about saying that, they dont really have the right to in my opinion, after fucking with me so bad. so ya, i wish he had have been serious, that offer souned rather nice.
i've been extremely tired basically since i woke up this morning. i just feel really out of it. so i decided to just call it a night and not go out, so that i could get some sleep. but of course, i can't sleep. it feels good just laying in bed with my eyes closed, but i get antsy and tired of just laying there. i wish i could fall asleep.