the notebook triggered the love part of my brain
i feel like my life is missing something. the past few days i've just been laying around the house (cuz i was too fucked up off my pain pills to do anything else)which gave me a lot of time to toss thoughts around in my mind. whether or not Wicker Park and The Notebook had anything to do with it, i dont know, but i've been feeling like i miss someone/thing. i miss the sense of belonging. i used to have at least 1 or 2 really good friends. friends that i could confide in and open up to. times change tho and people drift apart. i just wish that i had someone to be with. i still cant get her off my mind. i'm not sure if things really would be better if we got together. maybe she isnt the one who i'm supposed to be with. but maybe she is. all these love stories are making me think that she is for me. i can compare our relationship to every relationship i see. i just dont know for sure tho. i guess the best thing to do is just wait it out. if nothing better crosses our paths, we will be brought back together. and pick up where we left off. well, i'm sure i'll make it through. and if not, well..thats that i guess. as for now i'm gnna focus on getting over my goddamn wisdom teeth removal.