i hate humans
..actually I generally and genuinely like people. Sometimes I really do think to myself though, "I hate humans!".
I have become so self loathing recently.. There are times when I honestly wish I wasn't me and that I wish I was someone else. There are times when I just don't like how I feel. I am yearning for the time in my life when I do not secretly cry by myself shaming myself for the what I feel inside that I don't tell anyone about. I think I've recently become more sensitive lately. Not that it's affecting my work, sleep, or eating habits.. but I DON'T LIKE IT. grrrr... It's so conflicting with the natural sunny disposition that I normally have.
I haven't updated this in forever. I just felt like venting. For anyone who does still read this, I apologize for the random blatant honesty. really.
I have become so self loathing recently.. There are times when I honestly wish I wasn't me and that I wish I was someone else. There are times when I just don't like how I feel. I am yearning for the time in my life when I do not secretly cry by myself shaming myself for the what I feel inside that I don't tell anyone about. I think I've recently become more sensitive lately. Not that it's affecting my work, sleep, or eating habits.. but I DON'T LIKE IT. grrrr... It's so conflicting with the natural sunny disposition that I normally have.
I haven't updated this in forever. I just felt like venting. For anyone who does still read this, I apologize for the random blatant honesty. really.