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I live a bittersweet life.
With that out of the way. Waterworld was dope today. Also, I won some contest thing on some other blog...community...thingy...
Ehh, check it fools:
http://community.livejournal.com/eaglevsshark/137748.html?mode=reply
Maybe next time I'll try ;) hahaha, okay, I'm kidding. I bet people will be all like "Oh snap, this punk-ass kid must have a dope LiveJournal with fancy words. Let's check it", and will be horridly disapointed by this shoddy thing made of html and lose. (but probably not a one person came by here, so that's not really a worry ;D)
I <3 me. I'm also tired, my feet hurt, work is demanding on time, and etc. I don't know if I'm in a good mood or bad (well, I KNOW I'm in a good mood, just could be better ;D ), and I want to get some love. I think I'm leaning over desperate, 'ere =/ Of course, for specific reason I don't feel like disclosing randomly at the moment...
Hell, I need content, so I will :) More drama! <3
Yeah, I'm not a very private guy, leaving this junk journal out in the open for anyone to read. I'm hardcore like that, and that's just how I roll ;)
Either way, my mind is rolling out like this: I feel like I am "missing" something from being a dope guy who'd ever be able or considered for a relationship. I know I'm a good guy, and I'm not letting ego go to my head and shit, and I'm not ass ugly either. But something is missing where I can't exactly get girls to click with me, and be like "Oh baby, let's go sacrifice a raccoon's face just because I wanna be with you"...Okay, that was a smidge out-of-this-reality. ;D
Despite, even on the few girls that I find interest in, that aren't taken, I can't exactly click with them enough, which leads to nothing happening and just becoming a really dope friend. Sure, aint no problem, they're happy at least :) But it's like, "the hell am I doing wrong? Am I missing something?"
And on the inside, I think it's just eating me up. Like I said, me being a romantic is my worst trait about me in the list of bad traits. I think it's just killing me because I feel hella alone. Now thinking about it, I feel alone way too often, even with friends. I dunno, I mean, I enjoy myself, but I don't have...well...mostly anyone that I can...I dunno...indulge my mind and feelings with. I feel somehow incomplete with the people I'm around, and even though I'm open, there's something deeper that feels...hmmm...unfulfilled maybe? Maybe that's just a spot for a loved one? I guess it's likely, but something is there.
Despite, that aint the point ;) I'm dope, etc. Something is just junking me on the inside. I dunno if it's I feel so alone (emo alert ;D), if it bothers me that I can't find my one-itis, or the fact that other, horrible, non-legit, lying, cheating, women-abusive fools can get women over me.
That's one thing that is absolutely stupid in this world. People who would normally be considered scum by most are able to get out there and get girls because they, assumingly, look good, and can say half a night's worth of words right. That can get them to go out with a girl, get laid, etc. It just makes me wonder what the point of being a 100% legit, chillax, dope, guy is worth on the grand scale of things. Maybe it's hard to accept the truth, but it really is:
Girls/Guys don't want a real guy/girl.
And who knows, the "thing" I'm "missing" on capturing a girls heart and eyes might be I'm not fake at all. Man, I reread that, and that sounds retarded as fuck xD But it's pissing me off, so it's probably closer to true than I know :). And end the end, all I'm seen as is an open-book/diary that they can etch their deepest thoughts onto, and skim through what I am openly, but only shuffled ordinarily onto a bookshelf. (Hey, that wasn't half bad of an analogy :) But that's just MY opinion )
So maybe the truth is that I'm too real, too open, and there's nothing (to the naked, simple eye) to search for in me. Of course, I don't always expose everything, unless asked, but otherwise, I feel being pretty open is at least one thing I can do for my buddies, and anyone else. Maybe I should add a bit of mystique to myself, let the women keep guessing what's going on ;)...
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Nah, that aint my style ;)
The last time I changed for getting a girl, I ended ass-up in a garbage can in Mississippi (okay, that was a lie ;) ). But that aint worth it, being fake. It just isn't. I don't think I'd forgive myself if I had gone fake and did indeed get a really hella nice girl. It's...not wholesome what-so-ever. I'd hate it <3
Why am I so dope? ;) I need to (in Deets' words) man the fuck up. Man though, I should could use a daring and crafty girl, hahaha ;) I mean, who knows? I might have some secret admirer in the shadows of my LiveJournal waiting for the moment to confess her undying love to me by sending me an E-card with hamsters singing Rick Astley's "Never Gonna Give You Up"...
Oh fucking God, I effin' humor me. hahahahhahaha xD Damn my worst and 2nd best trait xDD
Oh, and even though I may sound emo, don't worry. I'm always chillax ;) You will KNOW when I'm being real sad like :)
Time for bed, script-kiddies. Remain dope <3 I am ;)
With that out of the way. Waterworld was dope today. Also, I won some contest thing on some other blog...community...thingy...
Ehh, check it fools:
http://community.livejournal.com/eaglevsshark/137748.html?mode=reply
Maybe next time I'll try ;) hahaha, okay, I'm kidding. I bet people will be all like "Oh snap, this punk-ass kid must have a dope LiveJournal with fancy words. Let's check it", and will be horridly disapointed by this shoddy thing made of html and lose. (but probably not a one person came by here, so that's not really a worry ;D)
I <3 me. I'm also tired, my feet hurt, work is demanding on time, and etc. I don't know if I'm in a good mood or bad (well, I KNOW I'm in a good mood, just could be better ;D ), and I want to get some love. I think I'm leaning over desperate, 'ere =/ Of course, for specific reason I don't feel like disclosing randomly at the moment...
Hell, I need content, so I will :) More drama! <3
Yeah, I'm not a very private guy, leaving this junk journal out in the open for anyone to read. I'm hardcore like that, and that's just how I roll ;)
Either way, my mind is rolling out like this: I feel like I am "missing" something from being a dope guy who'd ever be able or considered for a relationship. I know I'm a good guy, and I'm not letting ego go to my head and shit, and I'm not ass ugly either. But something is missing where I can't exactly get girls to click with me, and be like "Oh baby, let's go sacrifice a raccoon's face just because I wanna be with you"...Okay, that was a smidge out-of-this-reality. ;D
Despite, even on the few girls that I find interest in, that aren't taken, I can't exactly click with them enough, which leads to nothing happening and just becoming a really dope friend. Sure, aint no problem, they're happy at least :) But it's like, "the hell am I doing wrong? Am I missing something?"
And on the inside, I think it's just eating me up. Like I said, me being a romantic is my worst trait about me in the list of bad traits. I think it's just killing me because I feel hella alone. Now thinking about it, I feel alone way too often, even with friends. I dunno, I mean, I enjoy myself, but I don't have...well...mostly anyone that I can...I dunno...indulge my mind and feelings with. I feel somehow incomplete with the people I'm around, and even though I'm open, there's something deeper that feels...hmmm...unfulfilled maybe? Maybe that's just a spot for a loved one? I guess it's likely, but something is there.
Despite, that aint the point ;) I'm dope, etc. Something is just junking me on the inside. I dunno if it's I feel so alone (emo alert ;D), if it bothers me that I can't find my one-itis, or the fact that other, horrible, non-legit, lying, cheating, women-abusive fools can get women over me.
That's one thing that is absolutely stupid in this world. People who would normally be considered scum by most are able to get out there and get girls because they, assumingly, look good, and can say half a night's worth of words right. That can get them to go out with a girl, get laid, etc. It just makes me wonder what the point of being a 100% legit, chillax, dope, guy is worth on the grand scale of things. Maybe it's hard to accept the truth, but it really is:
Girls/Guys don't want a real guy/girl.
And who knows, the "thing" I'm "missing" on capturing a girls heart and eyes might be I'm not fake at all. Man, I reread that, and that sounds retarded as fuck xD But it's pissing me off, so it's probably closer to true than I know :). And end the end, all I'm seen as is an open-book/diary that they can etch their deepest thoughts onto, and skim through what I am openly, but only shuffled ordinarily onto a bookshelf. (Hey, that wasn't half bad of an analogy :) But that's just MY opinion )
So maybe the truth is that I'm too real, too open, and there's nothing (to the naked, simple eye) to search for in me. Of course, I don't always expose everything, unless asked, but otherwise, I feel being pretty open is at least one thing I can do for my buddies, and anyone else. Maybe I should add a bit of mystique to myself, let the women keep guessing what's going on ;)...
...
.........
..............
Nah, that aint my style ;)
The last time I changed for getting a girl, I ended ass-up in a garbage can in Mississippi (okay, that was a lie ;) ). But that aint worth it, being fake. It just isn't. I don't think I'd forgive myself if I had gone fake and did indeed get a really hella nice girl. It's...not wholesome what-so-ever. I'd hate it <3
Why am I so dope? ;) I need to (in Deets' words) man the fuck up. Man though, I should could use a daring and crafty girl, hahaha ;) I mean, who knows? I might have some secret admirer in the shadows of my LiveJournal waiting for the moment to confess her undying love to me by sending me an E-card with hamsters singing Rick Astley's "Never Gonna Give You Up"...
Oh fucking God, I effin' humor me. hahahahhahaha xD Damn my worst and 2nd best trait xDD
Oh, and even though I may sound emo, don't worry. I'm always chillax ;) You will KNOW when I'm being real sad like :)
Time for bed, script-kiddies. Remain dope <3 I am ;)