It's almost over
Long time no see? Well not really. It's almost over after Wed. I'll be out of school and I can fucking wait this school year has been hell and being kicked out of my house, well me leaving,is still a little upsetting to me. Yeah me and asshole finally got into it and I basically exposed his for the fraud that he was the sad part about that whole thing is that my mom didn't really come to my defense and I resent her for that. But I'm okay, I'm living with my Auntie Brenda she's pretty cool. I have to bring my bed from upstairs because I've been sleeping on the floor and it's killer on my back but with me just being so busy with finals and projects and papers I haven't had time.
I might be getting a job at the Children's Museum, my friend from school Nadia is trying to hook me up over there. I talked to her boss who was really nice she said that I difintely had the experience and asked me how I would like to start off with 8.20 an hour and that's cool. That would be more than I had made at Staples and I would have to work as hard. I'm going to try and fill out at Bubba Gump and Jamba Juice where Calvins work maybe I'll work two jobs because I need the money, especially for school. I'm only getting like a 1,000 dollars towards school and my school is about 5,500 a year that leaves 4,500 for me to pay. I don't have that type of money and plus I still would have to pay for bus fare. I might just go to Harold Washington for the fall and finish some of my gen eds there transfer them in but I don't know I still have to decide.
I know one thing I have to get back in fucking shape I want to lose about 50lbs this summer. I gained so much fucking weight when me and Adolfo started going together and it makes me so fucking depress. Even though he loves no matter what and says that I'm pretty it doesn't make me feel better about myself. I feel that I failed myself, by letting my self gain all this weight I've never been this big in my whole life ever. I just feel so ugly. It was totally my fault though I put so much into my relationship and taking care of somebody that I neglected myself and I took on his eating habits which doesn't work for my I can't eat that crap he eats. My weekends was usually spent with him and he would stay all types of hours of night and eat late so I would too. Then those fucking pills messed me up too and I just became fatigued all the time. I still have to go to the hospital to find out what the fuck is wrong with me. I don't I feel like a big fat failure. I just know I have to start back playing much more DDR and Pump It Up because refuse to stay fat and I mean that shit.
It also sucks though because I haven't had any in fucking 5 weeks. That's a long time without getting any hopefully that will change after Wed. I also want to paint this summer I want to paint about 5 painting I want to make 2 oil painting, 2 watercolor/gouche and an acrylic painting.
Betty invited me to make a gmail account and since it holds 20 gig I want to see in I can make it into a mp3 rotation. But the only way that I'll do this is if I know that people will download. It will be mostly jrock but I'll put in some metal, industrial, alternative and other stuff. Oh yeah my firt rotation if I do this will be Guo Tie Jun because I bought the cd off of yesasia.com and it was less than 9 bucks with shipping and handling it's a really awesome album. So just let me know if your interested peoples.
Oh yeah does anyone in journal land know Korean because I'm trying to learn and I needs some serious help.
I might be getting a job at the Children's Museum, my friend from school Nadia is trying to hook me up over there. I talked to her boss who was really nice she said that I difintely had the experience and asked me how I would like to start off with 8.20 an hour and that's cool. That would be more than I had made at Staples and I would have to work as hard. I'm going to try and fill out at Bubba Gump and Jamba Juice where Calvins work maybe I'll work two jobs because I need the money, especially for school. I'm only getting like a 1,000 dollars towards school and my school is about 5,500 a year that leaves 4,500 for me to pay. I don't have that type of money and plus I still would have to pay for bus fare. I might just go to Harold Washington for the fall and finish some of my gen eds there transfer them in but I don't know I still have to decide.
I know one thing I have to get back in fucking shape I want to lose about 50lbs this summer. I gained so much fucking weight when me and Adolfo started going together and it makes me so fucking depress. Even though he loves no matter what and says that I'm pretty it doesn't make me feel better about myself. I feel that I failed myself, by letting my self gain all this weight I've never been this big in my whole life ever. I just feel so ugly. It was totally my fault though I put so much into my relationship and taking care of somebody that I neglected myself and I took on his eating habits which doesn't work for my I can't eat that crap he eats. My weekends was usually spent with him and he would stay all types of hours of night and eat late so I would too. Then those fucking pills messed me up too and I just became fatigued all the time. I still have to go to the hospital to find out what the fuck is wrong with me. I don't I feel like a big fat failure. I just know I have to start back playing much more DDR and Pump It Up because refuse to stay fat and I mean that shit.
It also sucks though because I haven't had any in fucking 5 weeks. That's a long time without getting any hopefully that will change after Wed. I also want to paint this summer I want to paint about 5 painting I want to make 2 oil painting, 2 watercolor/gouche and an acrylic painting.
Betty invited me to make a gmail account and since it holds 20 gig I want to see in I can make it into a mp3 rotation. But the only way that I'll do this is if I know that people will download. It will be mostly jrock but I'll put in some metal, industrial, alternative and other stuff. Oh yeah my firt rotation if I do this will be Guo Tie Jun because I bought the cd off of yesasia.com and it was less than 9 bucks with shipping and handling it's a really awesome album. So just let me know if your interested peoples.
Oh yeah does anyone in journal land know Korean because I'm trying to learn and I needs some serious help.