I need to go read some Merthur slash to heal my brokeness.
*WEEPING*
EVEN THOUGH I KNEW IT WAS COMING-- WHY?! THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR ME. CAMELOT KILLED HIM OFF TOO! I DON'T CARE THAT IF HE STAYED, PERHAPS HE WOULD'VE TAKEN GWEN AND ARTHUR WOULD BE UNHAPPY. WHHHYYYY? *SOB* ARTHUR WILL FIND HIS LADY OF THE LAKE, Y'KNOW? FIRST CAS AND NOW LANCELOT. IT'S TOO MUCH. I WAS SO PREOCCUPIED WITH HOW CRAPPY THE ACTORS WERE BEING AND HOW 'PFFFT! NOW WAY! THIS LANCELOT-DRAGON SCENE IS TOO UNBELIEVABLE. HOW CAN HE ACCEPT IT SO EASILY.' AND THEN, BOOM. NEXT THING I KNOW HE'S SLIPPED BY MERLIN AND INTO THAT...PORTAL THING. MY HEART. ACK. IT'S BLEEDING. I JUST-- I can't, guys. I cannot.