Friends
Okay I'm going through Linda's website and I'm thinking, "Wow, she really has deep relationships with all these people." I mean, I get along with the ones that I know on there, well I'd have to say that I don't get along with Anne and Jen. Not that I really dislike either of them, but I just don't like either of them anymore. I mean, I really liked Jen as you know if u have ever read my journal, and Anne I liked, but not the same way. I like everybody, but unlike Linda, I don't have to many really close friends. I can think of 2. Joe and J.P. The only two people I think I could trust in a fight to have my back and who understand me. Well enough to look through my sarcasim and bullshit. I think J.P. is among one of the few people who've ever seen me cry. He actually consoled me, but I've done the same for him. He was my only friend for awhile, because everybody else thought I was a bully and an asshole, which I admit I was. I've known J.P. since I was 7, we became best friends when I was 9. Been boys ever since. Joe, moved inbetween into our housing area and lived almost directly between me and J.P. So on my way to J.P.'s house I'd stop by Joe and pick him up. I just started talking to Joe when he moved in, because he didn't have any friends and nobody else had a chance to tell him anything about me. They both have held me back and backed me up at times. Those are my boys and I love them, I will have their backs for the rest of my life. Same way I have Stewart and Alex's. Now thinking about the people Linda has on her list. I like most of them. They seem like good peeps, but we aren't close. Of all them I was probably closest to Chet. He could actually see through my bullshit to see I wasn't such a bad guy. Even though I constantly made fun of him, but I didn't mean anything by it. Stupid shit comes out of my mouth, but I'm always honest. Lord knows I have love for Chet, he's a good dude. Lawrence...well that's a little more...difficult to explain. I liked Lawrence alot for a while, he seemed cool, but all of a sudden he became all anti-social and shit. He kind of dissed me on my fairwell party from Oki so I was pissed at him for a while. I've gotten over it since and I hang with him, as much as anybody can hang with Lawrence I think. He doesn't leave his computer. Chad...I don't know what's up there. I like Chad but I'm not sure if it's mutual. John and Jon, both kick ass guys I like them both. Ray, never met that guy, but from what everybody says, we'd get along. Chuck kept saying I reminded him of Ray when I was drunk, or was it when I was sober. He always said stuff to men when I was drunk. I really don't know what the point of all that was...just what was on my mind.