Sep 08, 2009 21:29
Of the four Otherkin I've met in person, three have been dragons.
I'm quite sure this is because I associate most with dragons, and so it is the most likely thing to come up in conversation. A wolf would have no reason to reveal herself as a wolf during a conversation about dragons.
One was a chance meeting at a birthday party. We got to talking about videogames and i perked up at the mention of dragons. He gave me an odd look and asked, "are you a draconic?"
That is where I picked up on the term "draconic", which I still use sometimes for dragon otherkin.
The next two were a set of best friends whom I met in Modern Dance class during senior year of highschool. A fox and a little dragon.
Finally, at Kumoricon this weekend there was this guy in Aurora's cosplay group who I ended up spending some time with, and at one point I fell behind in the dealers' room and explained that I'd stopped to look at pretty dragons. He said, "I don't blame you for that. I love dragons", and the way he said it... if we hadn't been in such a loud, busy room, I would have dug further... Instead I just gave my usual answer of "I'm obsessed with them", and hoped that he'd bring up the subject again, just so my curiosity would be satisfied.
It was Aurora who actually proved my suspicions correct, as we were arriving back at the apartment. Someone mentioned how cute my new fox tail was, the guy agreed, and Aurora commented oh so casually, "You'd like her. She's a dragon too."
I turned on him at that moment and said, "Oh, I see," and his eyebrows went up in the most amusing way.
The truth is I don't call myself just a dragon anymore. I've always been uncertain about it, as I am with anything that can't be proven. Still, I've associated with Otherkin since I was thirteen years old, and it's too ingrained in me to ignore now. It was World Refugees that taught me, as it taught me so many things, that being afraid to call myself shapeshifter just because it sounded so farfetched was senseless when it felt even more right than what I had called myself before.
Horse, wolf, bird, dragon.
It doesn't matter to me if it is spiritual or mental. If it's something that always was, or something that I became because of my own beliefs. The human mind is very powerful. I have quite a lot of respect for the creative force of imagination and belief. So even if the inhuman aspect is made real only by the Otherkin's own mind, it does not diminish the power or truth of it as much as one might think.
dragons,
dreaming