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things are on the up and up. kinda.
dad is out of the hospital and better physically, but can't or won't shake the i'm going to die mental state.
my mom came up positive for the cancer gene and wants me to get tested immediately. if i come up positive it means pre-chemo treatment, early mastectomy and/or early hysterectomy/ovary removal. fun fun. plus it costs at least $100 up front.
karl is on his way out and hopefully i can get things in order financially and otherwise.
after my dad's near-death experience i have come to see how important friends and family are, and also how important it is to know who your real friends are. not only that, but to appreciate the ones you have. thank you to who helped me through this. i'm truly sorry that there were only 3 people who felt the need to show up for my dad.
also, i realize that my dad wound up in the hospital solely because of the choices he has made and only he can fix what has been done.
i am going to try to fix what i have done and try to stop fucking everything up because i'm too lazy to care.
i hate having power of attorney for my father.
i hate applying for medical assistance.
i hate applying for disability and all that other stuff.
up next i'm going to get central air in my house. just in time for bge to hike up the bill.
i have an unhealthy obsession with coheed and cambria.
the light and the glass did not almost kill my dad.
i fucking hate spain. i wish it would fall off of this planet.
i wish i knew people to take the two kittens because i'm afraid they're going to go to bad homes.
i am excited about going to puerto rico.
drinking just isn't as fun as it used to be.
my grandmother's pneumonia cleared up and then she sent me a check for 300.00. i'll never understand her.
sometimes a life-upheaval can be good. i just need to make it though these next few months.
dad is out of the hospital and better physically, but can't or won't shake the i'm going to die mental state.
my mom came up positive for the cancer gene and wants me to get tested immediately. if i come up positive it means pre-chemo treatment, early mastectomy and/or early hysterectomy/ovary removal. fun fun. plus it costs at least $100 up front.
karl is on his way out and hopefully i can get things in order financially and otherwise.
after my dad's near-death experience i have come to see how important friends and family are, and also how important it is to know who your real friends are. not only that, but to appreciate the ones you have. thank you to who helped me through this. i'm truly sorry that there were only 3 people who felt the need to show up for my dad.
also, i realize that my dad wound up in the hospital solely because of the choices he has made and only he can fix what has been done.
i am going to try to fix what i have done and try to stop fucking everything up because i'm too lazy to care.
i hate having power of attorney for my father.
i hate applying for medical assistance.
i hate applying for disability and all that other stuff.
up next i'm going to get central air in my house. just in time for bge to hike up the bill.
i have an unhealthy obsession with coheed and cambria.
the light and the glass did not almost kill my dad.
i fucking hate spain. i wish it would fall off of this planet.
i wish i knew people to take the two kittens because i'm afraid they're going to go to bad homes.
i am excited about going to puerto rico.
drinking just isn't as fun as it used to be.
my grandmother's pneumonia cleared up and then she sent me a check for 300.00. i'll never understand her.
sometimes a life-upheaval can be good. i just need to make it though these next few months.