you make my dreams come true
look at me..for shame. not writing in my livejournal for almost a frickin' month! i haven't written in my real journal in months so fuck it. so for the update you all have been wondering about...i am no longer with ryan. *sadface* This has got to be the hardest thing by far that i have ever had to do, ending a relationship of 3 years with someone is too much for anyone to handle.
I feel better tho. at first i regretted my decision wondering if i had made a mistake although i'm sure that's normal. but i realize it was for the better. i let all this shit get to me and it affected my work this quarter which is not ok with me at all. i'm immensley pissed off at myself. I talked to alex today and she said she was truly happy for me and that made my day. thank you alex you are the biggest sweetheart ever, I can't thank you enough for being who you are and being in my life *big hug*
as for my roommate molly, i can't even look at her. a few days after i ended my relationship with ryan she felt the need to contact him and call him without telling me to say i was involved with will (Which isn't entirely untrue) but it's the fact that she stuck her nose into my business and still (two weeks later) has not said a word to me about the phone call she made. fuck her. this would prolly make more sense if i was actually speaking face to face with whoever decides to read this but it really fuckin hurt. i've tried to avoid her and this apartment as much as possible the past 2 weeks, i'm just really disgusted.
so i'm in the process of looking for a new apartment with will somewhere in the city, his lease is up in june so ill let molly know a month in advance that she can suck my white ass. woot! by the way, i've also stopped smoking the cheeba for the past 3 weeks so yay jess! i'm really proud of myself i didn't think i would be able to, but don't get me wrong i'm still gonna smoke on occasion.
so this is the drama that has entraped jessica's life for the past month, sorry to everyone for not speaking more in detail about it...it's been hard. i feel so much happier now tho. the end of the quarter has come, i have left a not-so-happy relationship, and have found myself not being as stressed out as usual. it's nice to have alex's support and the support and encouragement from will, i thank him for alot of this.
so it's time for me to clean up the warpath which has become my room over the past week of finals and all the sunflower seeds i have scattered across the floor.
I feel better tho. at first i regretted my decision wondering if i had made a mistake although i'm sure that's normal. but i realize it was for the better. i let all this shit get to me and it affected my work this quarter which is not ok with me at all. i'm immensley pissed off at myself. I talked to alex today and she said she was truly happy for me and that made my day. thank you alex you are the biggest sweetheart ever, I can't thank you enough for being who you are and being in my life *big hug*
as for my roommate molly, i can't even look at her. a few days after i ended my relationship with ryan she felt the need to contact him and call him without telling me to say i was involved with will (Which isn't entirely untrue) but it's the fact that she stuck her nose into my business and still (two weeks later) has not said a word to me about the phone call she made. fuck her. this would prolly make more sense if i was actually speaking face to face with whoever decides to read this but it really fuckin hurt. i've tried to avoid her and this apartment as much as possible the past 2 weeks, i'm just really disgusted.
so i'm in the process of looking for a new apartment with will somewhere in the city, his lease is up in june so ill let molly know a month in advance that she can suck my white ass. woot! by the way, i've also stopped smoking the cheeba for the past 3 weeks so yay jess! i'm really proud of myself i didn't think i would be able to, but don't get me wrong i'm still gonna smoke on occasion.
so this is the drama that has entraped jessica's life for the past month, sorry to everyone for not speaking more in detail about it...it's been hard. i feel so much happier now tho. the end of the quarter has come, i have left a not-so-happy relationship, and have found myself not being as stressed out as usual. it's nice to have alex's support and the support and encouragement from will, i thank him for alot of this.
so it's time for me to clean up the warpath which has become my room over the past week of finals and all the sunflower seeds i have scattered across the floor.