another entry.
Warning: relationship ranting. Read at your own risk.
ha. I dont use this thing for a while and suddenly im double posting.
honestly, this is my outlet. Instead of telling him how i feel regarding our relationship i just blog it out and bypass the drama.
I hate that. How I'm always the dramatic one to him. I know a lot of people out there who declare their distaste for drama, but truly, they still cause it. I was a very negative kid in my adolescence. I think with the end of high school, I just got sick of it. my motto has always been to, "forget the bullshit, life's too short."
I'm really not a needy boyfriend. All I ask is for him is to illustrate that he's serious about me. is that too much to ask? I understand he works 40 hours a week and he commutes to school, but could he just show me that he at least appreciates me.
i was the hesitant one in this relationship. I honestly thought twice about getting into this relationship. And to be honest, it was perfect until his schedule became hectic. Then suddenly, any time i spend with him, it's like its a bother to him to talk to me, hang out with me, or any so interactions with me. I bit my tongue so hard, so many times. He continuously banters of how my job (which was his previous job) is beneath his new job or how i'm only in community college.
It's gotten to the point to where his bad moods spread right on to me.
yet regardless of this all. I don't want to loose him. I miss how it was. I really do. I just tell myself, "Hes just stressed. He cares but he's just got a lot to do." Is that wrong of me to attempt to validate such behavior.
i feel awful. But I'll just pretend I'm happy. Maybe things will get better. I have a feeling they won't. :(
ha. I dont use this thing for a while and suddenly im double posting.
honestly, this is my outlet. Instead of telling him how i feel regarding our relationship i just blog it out and bypass the drama.
I hate that. How I'm always the dramatic one to him. I know a lot of people out there who declare their distaste for drama, but truly, they still cause it. I was a very negative kid in my adolescence. I think with the end of high school, I just got sick of it. my motto has always been to, "forget the bullshit, life's too short."
I'm really not a needy boyfriend. All I ask is for him is to illustrate that he's serious about me. is that too much to ask? I understand he works 40 hours a week and he commutes to school, but could he just show me that he at least appreciates me.
i was the hesitant one in this relationship. I honestly thought twice about getting into this relationship. And to be honest, it was perfect until his schedule became hectic. Then suddenly, any time i spend with him, it's like its a bother to him to talk to me, hang out with me, or any so interactions with me. I bit my tongue so hard, so many times. He continuously banters of how my job (which was his previous job) is beneath his new job or how i'm only in community college.
It's gotten to the point to where his bad moods spread right on to me.
yet regardless of this all. I don't want to loose him. I miss how it was. I really do. I just tell myself, "Hes just stressed. He cares but he's just got a lot to do." Is that wrong of me to attempt to validate such behavior.
i feel awful. But I'll just pretend I'm happy. Maybe things will get better. I have a feeling they won't. :(