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Got back from Providence yesterday at like 6. Checking e-mail, LJ and Glitter now. I find that RuggedChick from Glitter, went home the day before yesterday to find her boy friend, dead. I can't stop crying. I didn't know her, it was like she was a friend of a friends. I don't know how he died though. It was his recipe that I used to make white chili. I remember when Michael left me the last time, when he told me he didn't love me. And I feel sick, like I can never trust him or love him again. I've always known that I was going to have Isaac. But I didn't see a daddy. It's not that I think Michael is going to die. I just don't know.
In other news I have gained weight, again. I am so tired it is ridiculous. Jaime woke Isaac up for the kagillionth time. I was o fucking pissed at him. But it's been like two hours. The first hour was screaming. The second hour was delirious mobile admiring. I just wanted to go downstairs and throw Isaac at him. And then scream at him for being such a jerk.
I'm going crazy thinking of all the things I want to get done on my house before my birthday party. It sucks that I must rely on others. Well, anyway. This entry has been going on for like 6 hours. I've also been searching for some art work to Rasturbate for the uglier pink wall in my front room. I was originally looking for paisley, but have since realized that paisley is a town in Scotland. I don't want my room ro be confusing. So now I'm looking for a mandala. You'd be surprised how difficult it is to find a simple mandala. I started this thread at Glitter, asking what everyone thought I should do with the baseboard/doors/windows. Someone suggested a crackle finish, which I think is a great idea.
In other news I have gained weight, again. I am so tired it is ridiculous. Jaime woke Isaac up for the kagillionth time. I was o fucking pissed at him. But it's been like two hours. The first hour was screaming. The second hour was delirious mobile admiring. I just wanted to go downstairs and throw Isaac at him. And then scream at him for being such a jerk.
I'm going crazy thinking of all the things I want to get done on my house before my birthday party. It sucks that I must rely on others. Well, anyway. This entry has been going on for like 6 hours. I've also been searching for some art work to Rasturbate for the uglier pink wall in my front room. I was originally looking for paisley, but have since realized that paisley is a town in Scotland. I don't want my room ro be confusing. So now I'm looking for a mandala. You'd be surprised how difficult it is to find a simple mandala. I started this thread at Glitter, asking what everyone thought I should do with the baseboard/doors/windows. Someone suggested a crackle finish, which I think is a great idea.