I'm tired
of getting hurt!!!!!!!! Why does it happen to me ? What the hell did I do wrong to deserve this kind of pain? I can take getting hit and being in pain physically because those sort of things go away but the emotional pain I endure sometimes is unbearable... I want it all to stop I want to be able to live each day of my life without getting hurt... maybe it's my own fault maybe I get hurt because of what I choose to do... so if that is true then I have become worthless as a human being and then if there is nothing for me here but pain then I should find a way to end it all... but what? Killing myself wont solve anything because people claim to "need" me they claim that I am " too important to lose" if this is true then why is it that I;m left out of somethings? Why is it that I always end up hurting more than others? Why is it that when I give my heart openly all I get in return is my heart broken only meant for me to pick up the pieces? That I find my light and my path is clear only for that light to disappear leaving me in darkness again to stumble off of the path onto whatever comes my way whether it may lead to joy or to my inevitable destruction !!!!!!!! why? why? why? why? why does it happen to me?
I know there are people in this world who may have had or still have it worse but right now I can care less about what others want I can care less about what I can do to make others happy because to make my point I'm tired of it I'm tired of feeling used like someones accessory only to be gotten rid of when a better model comes out...I am tired of helping others only to have others not come to my aid when I need it... I am tired of crying myself to bed EACH AND EVERY NIGHT just thinking if I did something wrong to deserve this... I am tired of the world just turning its back on me and be forgotten for an eternity while those whose lives I make happy go on and come back for me to temorarily make them heppy for the moment only to feel happy myself just to be miserable again at my own expense...
I just want for the pain to stop no matter what it takes or costs me I want this pain to stop...I need someone to end it for me for better or worse...put me out of my pain...take it from my life...show me my path again...help me put my heart back together or give me a heart in exchange for mine... someone please.........................
just end my pain...
-Ryosuke-
Ashley I still love you no matter what...please love me in return
I know there are people in this world who may have had or still have it worse but right now I can care less about what others want I can care less about what I can do to make others happy because to make my point I'm tired of it I'm tired of feeling used like someones accessory only to be gotten rid of when a better model comes out...I am tired of helping others only to have others not come to my aid when I need it... I am tired of crying myself to bed EACH AND EVERY NIGHT just thinking if I did something wrong to deserve this... I am tired of the world just turning its back on me and be forgotten for an eternity while those whose lives I make happy go on and come back for me to temorarily make them heppy for the moment only to feel happy myself just to be miserable again at my own expense...
I just want for the pain to stop no matter what it takes or costs me I want this pain to stop...I need someone to end it for me for better or worse...put me out of my pain...take it from my life...show me my path again...help me put my heart back together or give me a heart in exchange for mine... someone please.........................
just end my pain...
-Ryosuke-
Ashley I still love you no matter what...please love me in return