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I’m having a horrible day... no one specific reason, just a little bit of everything.
I really needa get my shit together. I’m not doing well in school, I work more than anyone I know but I never have any money, I’m unorganized as fuck, I’ve been getting around 2 hrs of sleep every night, and I feel fat and gross and need to lose 20 pounds.
I have 4 papers to write for my ACH101 class by Wednesday because I decided not to start any of them until the week of the last class. They’re not difficult, but it's going to be a pain in the ass doing them all at once. Oh well, guess whose fault that is. I haveee to do them and do them well b/c sadly this is one of the very few classes that I’m passing.
Today I’m scheduled to work from 9:00am to 9:30pm... both Hyundai and gamestop. I slept from 7am to 9am at stony brook this morning, was late to work, and now I’m completely unprepared for working at gamestop for the 3rd week in a row (only clothing I had with me were pajamas). I grabbed a pair of nick's khaki pants in my mad rush of 'omg-lateness!' but now that I tried them on they look weird b/c they're all baggy around the butt and they're too short. Plus as far as other clothing goes I only have slippers and a hoodie. Hopefully I can get coverage for an hour so I can just go home and change between jobs. I need to change my lip ring to a stud too b/c gamestop corp. is an asshole.
I don't have anyone/anything to blame for being so irresponsible. I can't even say that I hang out with friends too much and it interferes because I have almost everyday at work for 6 hours sitting on a computer at work doing nothing and I could be doing homework, but instead I doodle and download music and sit on facebook and AIM and complain about being bored. I spend $250 a week on I-have-no-idea-what and save nothing. And then when my car insurance or cell phone payment is due I just use an entire paycheck to pay it off and then have no gas for my car or money for the week. And I always forget about credit card bills ENTIRELY, and even though my bill is only like $10.00 a month, I end up getting charged like $50 a month b/c I always forget about them and pay them late.
ugh I hate when people write this kinda stuff on LJ, and now I’m doing it.
I wanna go into the city soon.
I wanna watch the third season of the OC.
I'd like to see non-SBU friends too.
I really wanna go to Jersey to visit my Joey over winter break.
I want enough money to buy lots of Christmas presents for people.
I'm happy I don't have work and will not be home this weekend.
I hate that I constantly feel like I annoy people.
I hate that I care too much about whether or not people like me and go out of my way to do favors for people that probably won't ever do anything in return for me.
And this is really random but I'm really interested in getting a job working with children with autism/downs syndrome/etc.
I really needa get my shit together. I’m not doing well in school, I work more than anyone I know but I never have any money, I’m unorganized as fuck, I’ve been getting around 2 hrs of sleep every night, and I feel fat and gross and need to lose 20 pounds.
I have 4 papers to write for my ACH101 class by Wednesday because I decided not to start any of them until the week of the last class. They’re not difficult, but it's going to be a pain in the ass doing them all at once. Oh well, guess whose fault that is. I haveee to do them and do them well b/c sadly this is one of the very few classes that I’m passing.
Today I’m scheduled to work from 9:00am to 9:30pm... both Hyundai and gamestop. I slept from 7am to 9am at stony brook this morning, was late to work, and now I’m completely unprepared for working at gamestop for the 3rd week in a row (only clothing I had with me were pajamas). I grabbed a pair of nick's khaki pants in my mad rush of 'omg-lateness!' but now that I tried them on they look weird b/c they're all baggy around the butt and they're too short. Plus as far as other clothing goes I only have slippers and a hoodie. Hopefully I can get coverage for an hour so I can just go home and change between jobs. I need to change my lip ring to a stud too b/c gamestop corp. is an asshole.
I don't have anyone/anything to blame for being so irresponsible. I can't even say that I hang out with friends too much and it interferes because I have almost everyday at work for 6 hours sitting on a computer at work doing nothing and I could be doing homework, but instead I doodle and download music and sit on facebook and AIM and complain about being bored. I spend $250 a week on I-have-no-idea-what and save nothing. And then when my car insurance or cell phone payment is due I just use an entire paycheck to pay it off and then have no gas for my car or money for the week. And I always forget about credit card bills ENTIRELY, and even though my bill is only like $10.00 a month, I end up getting charged like $50 a month b/c I always forget about them and pay them late.
ugh I hate when people write this kinda stuff on LJ, and now I’m doing it.
I wanna go into the city soon.
I wanna watch the third season of the OC.
I'd like to see non-SBU friends too.
I really wanna go to Jersey to visit my Joey over winter break.
I want enough money to buy lots of Christmas presents for people.
I'm happy I don't have work and will not be home this weekend.
I hate that I constantly feel like I annoy people.
I hate that I care too much about whether or not people like me and go out of my way to do favors for people that probably won't ever do anything in return for me.
And this is really random but I'm really interested in getting a job working with children with autism/downs syndrome/etc.