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I'm a basket case.
1. I haven't heard from Boss Chris, and I'm worrying that I won't get another gig anytime soon. No, Jay, don't say anything to him. I'm just concerned my income will dry up.
2. The whole house thing. I get obsessive about things like this.
3. Got a bill from the doctor's office - the insurance apparently decided not to cover my visit with Doctor Anthone - no explanation given. $257 for about fifteen minutes. We pay through the nose for...what? $20 knocked off the cost of the appointment? I'm worried about owing the whole $2,500 family deductible, then having to turn around and do it again next year. We're trying to clear up our debt, for God's sake. Next year, we should probably plan on having enough money taken from Jay's paycheck to cover that deductible and put into that savings account thing. Thing is, that's some $200 a month we COULD be living on, or paying other bills with. *sighs* I know other people have much worse health insurance stories than this, but I got really spoiled on my old coverage, so I expect more - ESPECIALLY for the amount of money we're paying for it.
Jay came upstairs with a Ziploc bag full of plastic shreds. "Want some house seeds?" he asked jokingly. Seriously, I'm gonna keep those shredded credit cards and sow them under the new house's foundation. When we get that far.
Yes, I'm stressing way too much. No, I don't know how to calm down.
It's bad enough that I broke down and cried during Kenneth's kindergarten open house. They'd taken pictures of various events during the year and made a dvd of them, set to music. It totally wrenched me - my little boy isn't so little anymore, and I'm not having any more babies.
It's difficult to articulate what's going through my head. All I know is I feel unhinged and very worried.
William Lamb, the guy my morning DJ's host on Tuesday mornings (though he was on today - go figure) said that mid-month Scorpios (and their opposite signs) have it ok this summer; that they just need to calm down and look at things objectively.
It may take Jay a while to come to a decision about something, but once he does - you'd better get out of the way. I told him it feels like he's turned into a runaway steam train, and I feel like I'm clinging to the caboose's handrails for dear life. BUT he does what he says he will - it's not wasted energy or a lot of empty trumpeting. So I will endure this wild ride, because I feel I can trust him. "It'll be worth it, " he said tonight.
The Target and AmEx card/accounts are history, along with a couple of other unused ones of Jay's. They will (hopefully) be consolidated into a lower-interest loan by the bank. Our next step is talking to them, and hoping we don't get laughed out of the office.
1. I haven't heard from Boss Chris, and I'm worrying that I won't get another gig anytime soon. No, Jay, don't say anything to him. I'm just concerned my income will dry up.
2. The whole house thing. I get obsessive about things like this.
3. Got a bill from the doctor's office - the insurance apparently decided not to cover my visit with Doctor Anthone - no explanation given. $257 for about fifteen minutes. We pay through the nose for...what? $20 knocked off the cost of the appointment? I'm worried about owing the whole $2,500 family deductible, then having to turn around and do it again next year. We're trying to clear up our debt, for God's sake. Next year, we should probably plan on having enough money taken from Jay's paycheck to cover that deductible and put into that savings account thing. Thing is, that's some $200 a month we COULD be living on, or paying other bills with. *sighs* I know other people have much worse health insurance stories than this, but I got really spoiled on my old coverage, so I expect more - ESPECIALLY for the amount of money we're paying for it.
Jay came upstairs with a Ziploc bag full of plastic shreds. "Want some house seeds?" he asked jokingly. Seriously, I'm gonna keep those shredded credit cards and sow them under the new house's foundation. When we get that far.
Yes, I'm stressing way too much. No, I don't know how to calm down.
It's bad enough that I broke down and cried during Kenneth's kindergarten open house. They'd taken pictures of various events during the year and made a dvd of them, set to music. It totally wrenched me - my little boy isn't so little anymore, and I'm not having any more babies.
It's difficult to articulate what's going through my head. All I know is I feel unhinged and very worried.
William Lamb, the guy my morning DJ's host on Tuesday mornings (though he was on today - go figure) said that mid-month Scorpios (and their opposite signs) have it ok this summer; that they just need to calm down and look at things objectively.
It may take Jay a while to come to a decision about something, but once he does - you'd better get out of the way. I told him it feels like he's turned into a runaway steam train, and I feel like I'm clinging to the caboose's handrails for dear life. BUT he does what he says he will - it's not wasted energy or a lot of empty trumpeting. So I will endure this wild ride, because I feel I can trust him. "It'll be worth it, " he said tonight.
The Target and AmEx card/accounts are history, along with a couple of other unused ones of Jay's. They will (hopefully) be consolidated into a lower-interest loan by the bank. Our next step is talking to them, and hoping we don't get laughed out of the office.