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I'm tired. My head and eyes hurt a bit. I didn't sleep well last night - I don't know why.
Jay and Kenneth were feeling better yesterday, but both seem worse today. I don't like to compain because I know I'm lucky to have both of them, but damn...having two of them sick is almost too much to deal with. :-/
I met jay for lunch today and mentioned that I'd go to Goodwill to look for some shirts for myself. He looked at me reproachfully and said something about weaning me into shopping at "real" stores like JCPenney or Younkers. I promised that I'd go into JCPenneys and look. I wouldn't guarantee that I'd buy anything.
I was freaked out a bit. I couldn't find anything my size (20). The crowded salesfloor buzzed in my brain. I almost felt like a guppy in a shark tank.
Don't ask me why.
I did find skirts that I liked, but then - how often do I wear skirts? And I have on already that's similar in fabric and cut to several of those at JCP. All the shirts were too short or too small.
I did go to Payless and found a couple of pairs of shoes. I got a really cute pair of gladiator sandals and a pair of classic black pumps. I didn't have anything to wear with dresses besides my black boots or my little sandals.
Maybe I just need to go to Dress Barn or something (that's where I found the aforementioned skirt and the tshirt I wore today). I've decided to get rid of all the tops my mother gave me. While they're perfectly fine - in good shape, etc - I don't feel good in them. I feel sloppy and slouchy. At the same time, I don't really like tops that hug my hips too closely, because it makes me look pregnant (in fact, the guy at the train store in KC asked Jay when I was due).
I suppose my frustration is more with my odd shape and the insurance company's refusal to do anything about it. The panni won't go away without surgery.
I'm restless and anxious. I wish I could calm down.
Jay and Kenneth were feeling better yesterday, but both seem worse today. I don't like to compain because I know I'm lucky to have both of them, but damn...having two of them sick is almost too much to deal with. :-/
I met jay for lunch today and mentioned that I'd go to Goodwill to look for some shirts for myself. He looked at me reproachfully and said something about weaning me into shopping at "real" stores like JCPenney or Younkers. I promised that I'd go into JCPenneys and look. I wouldn't guarantee that I'd buy anything.
I was freaked out a bit. I couldn't find anything my size (20). The crowded salesfloor buzzed in my brain. I almost felt like a guppy in a shark tank.
Don't ask me why.
I did find skirts that I liked, but then - how often do I wear skirts? And I have on already that's similar in fabric and cut to several of those at JCP. All the shirts were too short or too small.
I did go to Payless and found a couple of pairs of shoes. I got a really cute pair of gladiator sandals and a pair of classic black pumps. I didn't have anything to wear with dresses besides my black boots or my little sandals.
Maybe I just need to go to Dress Barn or something (that's where I found the aforementioned skirt and the tshirt I wore today). I've decided to get rid of all the tops my mother gave me. While they're perfectly fine - in good shape, etc - I don't feel good in them. I feel sloppy and slouchy. At the same time, I don't really like tops that hug my hips too closely, because it makes me look pregnant (in fact, the guy at the train store in KC asked Jay when I was due).
I suppose my frustration is more with my odd shape and the insurance company's refusal to do anything about it. The panni won't go away without surgery.
I'm restless and anxious. I wish I could calm down.