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So not in the mood for today. Not angry or anything, just...not in the mood.
It's hard for me to face an early-morning phone meeting when I have no good progress to report on. Makes me feel like a kid being chewed out for not doing homework. I do realize I deserve it, but....
It didn't help that Kenneth's ODD was on "full" this morning. It's hard for me to keep cool when he's acting up - and I do lose it more often than not. For God's sake, just DO what I tell you! I'm trying to keep both of us out of trouble! *
He's having increasing trouble at school, fighting with classmates, spending time in the office... He lost all electronics privileges last weekend for being in in-school suspension Friday.
I'm at a loss. Maybe it's time to have his meds adjusted.
I feel like I've failed him.
I feel like I've failed just about everybody, especially myself.
l2life, plz. kthxbai.
* This seems to be a recurring theme and the driving force in my life: staying out of trouble. Not finding joy or finding God or anything noble like that. Just...staying under the radar and not making waves.
It's hard for me to face an early-morning phone meeting when I have no good progress to report on. Makes me feel like a kid being chewed out for not doing homework. I do realize I deserve it, but....
It didn't help that Kenneth's ODD was on "full" this morning. It's hard for me to keep cool when he's acting up - and I do lose it more often than not. For God's sake, just DO what I tell you! I'm trying to keep both of us out of trouble! *
He's having increasing trouble at school, fighting with classmates, spending time in the office... He lost all electronics privileges last weekend for being in in-school suspension Friday.
I'm at a loss. Maybe it's time to have his meds adjusted.
I feel like I've failed him.
I feel like I've failed just about everybody, especially myself.
l2life, plz. kthxbai.
* This seems to be a recurring theme and the driving force in my life: staying out of trouble. Not finding joy or finding God or anything noble like that. Just...staying under the radar and not making waves.