Welp.
I wasn't feeling crash-hot on Friday after a stressful day at work and when I got home I proceeded to have a minor emotional breakdown.
I say minor because I mean as far as 'breakdowns' go it wasn't very dramatic, I just don't really know what else to call it. I'm fine, lol, it wasn't actually anything very serious but I want to apologise to the people I chatted to that night because while I don't really remember any specific details I'm sure I came off as a bit of a dick at points. So I'm sorry, none of you really deserve to put up with my wank.
I stayed up most of the night and I don't even know why, it felt like such a waste of time in the morning, after I fell asleep in the early hours curled up in the armchair in my living room--I hadn't gotten anywhere near as much stuff done as I would have needed to, to justify staying up that long. It was probably the lack of sleep, but in the morning I felt worse--and really, really anxious. Panicky. I wanted someone there to hold my hand.
But then I did the polar opposite of seeking help, and instead shut down all communications with everyone. I left my phone in the other room, I closed Tweetdeck, I signed out of MSN. It's not the first time I've done this for a day to detox, and I figured I'd once again come out of it feeling better. And I did.
I spent the day making things, I worked on more troll horns and styled a wig (I'm still not too crash hot at it but I'm learning!). All the things I was working on were spread out across my table like so.
Being surrounded by things like this is always comforting for me. I didn't shut my computer down or close Tumblr, since I did need something to do while things dried, etc, but it felt like a bit of a load off my shoulders just to reduce the amount of computer-related stuff I was doing.
That, and I knew I'd get the same questions from every person; 'What's wrong? Are you okay? Is there anything I can do to help?' Not having answers to any of those questions, it didn't seem all that appealing to have to deal with them over and over--not that I didn't appreciate the intentions behind the questions, I just knew it'd frustrate me to repeat myself over and over.
I guess what I want to say is--I'm fine, and I'm sorry if I ignored you the last couple of days or acted like a douche. Comments are disabled because I'd rather not discuss it any further.
Now I'm going to watch the episode of Underbelly: Razor I missed last week. Oh and kpop fans, if you have SBS1 there's two hours of asian music videos on at 8:30am tomorrow. Finally a music program I can enjoy after Video Hits turned to shit.
I say minor because I mean as far as 'breakdowns' go it wasn't very dramatic, I just don't really know what else to call it. I'm fine, lol, it wasn't actually anything very serious but I want to apologise to the people I chatted to that night because while I don't really remember any specific details I'm sure I came off as a bit of a dick at points. So I'm sorry, none of you really deserve to put up with my wank.
I stayed up most of the night and I don't even know why, it felt like such a waste of time in the morning, after I fell asleep in the early hours curled up in the armchair in my living room--I hadn't gotten anywhere near as much stuff done as I would have needed to, to justify staying up that long. It was probably the lack of sleep, but in the morning I felt worse--and really, really anxious. Panicky. I wanted someone there to hold my hand.
But then I did the polar opposite of seeking help, and instead shut down all communications with everyone. I left my phone in the other room, I closed Tweetdeck, I signed out of MSN. It's not the first time I've done this for a day to detox, and I figured I'd once again come out of it feeling better. And I did.
I spent the day making things, I worked on more troll horns and styled a wig (I'm still not too crash hot at it but I'm learning!). All the things I was working on were spread out across my table like so.
Being surrounded by things like this is always comforting for me. I didn't shut my computer down or close Tumblr, since I did need something to do while things dried, etc, but it felt like a bit of a load off my shoulders just to reduce the amount of computer-related stuff I was doing.
That, and I knew I'd get the same questions from every person; 'What's wrong? Are you okay? Is there anything I can do to help?' Not having answers to any of those questions, it didn't seem all that appealing to have to deal with them over and over--not that I didn't appreciate the intentions behind the questions, I just knew it'd frustrate me to repeat myself over and over.
I guess what I want to say is--I'm fine, and I'm sorry if I ignored you the last couple of days or acted like a douche. Comments are disabled because I'd rather not discuss it any further.
Now I'm going to watch the episode of Underbelly: Razor I missed last week. Oh and kpop fans, if you have SBS1 there's two hours of asian music videos on at 8:30am tomorrow. Finally a music program I can enjoy after Video Hits turned to shit.