boring update
school is really boring, kinda tired, brain dead. just kinda chugging through until summer comes, and then I've got a shitload of work to do over the summer, but i'll spend the first week relaxing, for sure. hopefully next week is PARTAY WEEK BEFORE THE SUMMER which means movies and shit, at least for the last half.
in other news, really horny recently, and i have no clue why (i blame dorian!). it makes me fucking frustrated that i can't really do much about it. DAMNED BODY. it's all female and shit. i can't like, jack off ;; ITS A SAD LIFE. and reading/writing/etc porn doesn't help, it just makes it worse.
HAHA, y'all probably didn't need to know that. TMI YAAAY. hm, need new tag for this, obviously.
on vaguely related note, still keen to get therapy over the summer. hopefully will be of some use. i dont know. i don't know much about my own issues, it's all kind of confused and shit, being trans is weird.
THAT REMINDS ME. today at school:
Girl: my life suuuuucks my parents hate meee my grades are suckyyyy
Me: that's not fun :(
Girl: -whine whine omg emo-
Me: Well, look on the bright side. -look how lame I am when I attempt to understand people's emotions!- you're not failing the IB. or homeless. or trans.
Girl: Being trans isn't that bad.
Me: ...wat?
Girl: Well, I already hate myself.
Me: yeah, but you don't like, want to cut bits of yourself off, right? ha? -awkward-
Girl: Well, you just gotta learn to accept yourself.
Me: ....what?
Girl: ...accept your body for what it is.
Me: ..........wat
though that's nothing compared to bobby who keeps saying intensely offensive things without realising. including:
"old habits die hard" when he messes up with pronouns
"you don't like football? but you're a guy!" and then after I go 'you've never met a guy who doesn't like football?' he goes "nope! well, guys from europe like football!"
"oh yeah, i wanted to change my name to adolf once, but they told me it was too controversial" when i explained how i wanted a name change next year
just, wat. i told him he keeps being offensive today, and i think i kind of bummed him out, cause he looked pretty depressed afterward. but I don't know what else to do. it gets surprisingly annoying, surprisingly fast, and i know it's not just me, because others have nodded in sympathy upon the unintended offensive comments of the infamous Bobby. gah, idk, i hope he stops, or at least learns a bit more about social interaction. (bad jokes do not a friendship make)
playing lots of DDO lately. that's fun.
in other news, really horny recently, and i have no clue why (i blame dorian!). it makes me fucking frustrated that i can't really do much about it. DAMNED BODY. it's all female and shit. i can't like, jack off ;; ITS A SAD LIFE. and reading/writing/etc porn doesn't help, it just makes it worse.
HAHA, y'all probably didn't need to know that. TMI YAAAY. hm, need new tag for this, obviously.
on vaguely related note, still keen to get therapy over the summer. hopefully will be of some use. i dont know. i don't know much about my own issues, it's all kind of confused and shit, being trans is weird.
THAT REMINDS ME. today at school:
Girl: my life suuuuucks my parents hate meee my grades are suckyyyy
Me: that's not fun :(
Girl: -whine whine omg emo-
Me: Well, look on the bright side. -look how lame I am when I attempt to understand people's emotions!- you're not failing the IB. or homeless. or trans.
Girl: Being trans isn't that bad.
Me: ...wat?
Girl: Well, I already hate myself.
Me: yeah, but you don't like, want to cut bits of yourself off, right? ha? -awkward-
Girl: Well, you just gotta learn to accept yourself.
Me: ....what?
Girl: ...accept your body for what it is.
Me: ..........wat
though that's nothing compared to bobby who keeps saying intensely offensive things without realising. including:
"old habits die hard" when he messes up with pronouns
"you don't like football? but you're a guy!" and then after I go 'you've never met a guy who doesn't like football?' he goes "nope! well, guys from europe like football!"
"oh yeah, i wanted to change my name to adolf once, but they told me it was too controversial" when i explained how i wanted a name change next year
just, wat. i told him he keeps being offensive today, and i think i kind of bummed him out, cause he looked pretty depressed afterward. but I don't know what else to do. it gets surprisingly annoying, surprisingly fast, and i know it's not just me, because others have nodded in sympathy upon the unintended offensive comments of the infamous Bobby. gah, idk, i hope he stops, or at least learns a bit more about social interaction. (bad jokes do not a friendship make)
playing lots of DDO lately. that's fun.