Not going friends-only, but no-crap only
Conversing via email to a friend has left me wondering if it's even worth commenting in peoples' ljs.
Evidently I've been coming off really apathetic and whiny, and while a month ago I was reassured this was not true and absolutely fine because, hey, we're all friends and that's what we're for, to talk with and reassure each other and stuff, I've become something of a hassle to deal with?
I don't know.
I just got really upset and it's been weighing alot on my mind.
I've been updating less and less and editing what I post more and more because I'm afraid he was right.
Maybe I am a whiny, sucky friend. Maybe everything I whine about is my own fault because I make the choices in my life, so I should shut up. I should shut up because I have no right to complain or voice my thoughts.
I think my friendship with someone ended the other day, and I'd hate to do that with any of you. Because I've cried alot in the past few days, there's been alot going on beyond just school that's screwed up life again that I found out last night, and I'm scared and worried and upset.
But I want a response so I can cull a list of who to screen my posts to, so I know I'm not going to offend/upset/annoy anyone.
Because I don't want to be cussed out or be called a bad friend. Because I didn't think having a bad day and ranting made me one.
And I'm mad again. I keep getting worked up.
Darn it on PMS and strokes and people getting sick. Life just sucks that way, right?
Anyway, comment on what level you want to see of what I post, and when you want comments from me.
Beyond that, you won't hear from me.
Because I've decided it's not worth dealing with the crap I'm getting.
--Sarah
Evidently I've been coming off really apathetic and whiny, and while a month ago I was reassured this was not true and absolutely fine because, hey, we're all friends and that's what we're for, to talk with and reassure each other and stuff, I've become something of a hassle to deal with?
I don't know.
I just got really upset and it's been weighing alot on my mind.
I've been updating less and less and editing what I post more and more because I'm afraid he was right.
Maybe I am a whiny, sucky friend. Maybe everything I whine about is my own fault because I make the choices in my life, so I should shut up. I should shut up because I have no right to complain or voice my thoughts.
I think my friendship with someone ended the other day, and I'd hate to do that with any of you. Because I've cried alot in the past few days, there's been alot going on beyond just school that's screwed up life again that I found out last night, and I'm scared and worried and upset.
But I want a response so I can cull a list of who to screen my posts to, so I know I'm not going to offend/upset/annoy anyone.
Because I don't want to be cussed out or be called a bad friend. Because I didn't think having a bad day and ranting made me one.
And I'm mad again. I keep getting worked up.
Darn it on PMS and strokes and people getting sick. Life just sucks that way, right?
Anyway, comment on what level you want to see of what I post, and when you want comments from me.
Beyond that, you won't hear from me.
Because I've decided it's not worth dealing with the crap I'm getting.
--Sarah