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ok so i understand that life is full of its ups and downs, but when the fuck is my life gonna start going up? i swear it's been all down since march, starting with evan and me breaking up. what the hell? im so fucking sick of being alone. ok, 3 months might not seem that long, but i fucking hate being single. everybody's always all like "oh being single's the shit, you dont have to be tied down to just one person." fuck that. most of my opinion on that is probly bias and coming from the fact that i can't pull any girls, but i've always hated being alone. maybe i just need to get laid. i've been so fucking sexually frustrated from this 3 MONTH DRY SPELL, it's fucking nuts. and everybody around me is getting some. i refuse to let it be like last time, going 8 months without any. it sucks. i HATE being jealous and i feel like a douche for being jealous of justin. i mean he's my best friend and always has my back, but like whenever i'm chilling with him, he's either on the phone with his girl, talking to her on aim, or she's over. i go to bed at his house last night and he's on the phone with her. i wake up, and she's over. they were together all day today, and now as i type, he's in the back of the room on the phone with her. why cant i be lucky enough to find somebody that likes me that much, and i wont have to rely on only being able to hang out with him, when he's stuck up her ass? this is fucking bullshit. man fuck it, im hate complaining and i sound like a pussy on here. i'm fucking sick of trying to "do the right thing" or be a nice person, cuz its all just pointless. nice guys finish last and thats a scientific fact. fuck