fuck it
do you ever feel like youre just fucking meant to have a fucking horrible life? like you never have anyting to look forward to? like youre not ever going to go anywhere so why try? i swear to god, it sucks. its like once one thing gets better, something else will go bad. so yea i came home from work to find out that my parents are getting a divorce....again. this whole dilemma happened about a month and a half ago after a big fight and they made up but looks like theyre gonna have another go at it. i dont even know what to feel. i wanted to tell my dad i didnt believe him, but i was too confused. i found out when i was driving him to the store and i just gassed it and did like 70 down idlewild. i was actually wishing a tire would blow out and i would just hit a tree and end it. but thats gay, so nvm. but besides that i dont know how things are going. works straight i guess. after every hard night i say im going to quit and its my last night, but i wont. school's school. wrestling's pretty fun, but i landed wrong on my jaw. dont know about the girl situation. i like brittany.....alot. but i dont know if she feels the same way. i dont know. so i found out that my dad's deciding to take my car to work tomorow and he doesnt get off till 4 so i gotta find a ride home. thats fucking retarded. i cant do shit w/ my own car and have to get a ride home atleast like twice a week, yet i still have to pay all $111 a month for insurance? its not going to happen anymore. dammit i just wish things would go my way just once. im so sick of being lonely. maybe next weekend will be good. justins parents are going out of town and were gonna get some alcohol and have a few people over. most people we want to come wont be able to or something but w/e. fuck it