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so what the hell is up. im chillin at my cousins house now. i fuckin love it over here. the mood is so chill and relaxed. its crunk. charles and amey picked me up and we went to the abc store and picked up some jagermeister. than to the gas station for some red bull. came home and ordered some pizza. had a few shots of jagerbomb and watched boondock saints. its a fuckin awesome movie about these 2 irish brothers that go vigilante killing all these russian mob bosses. fuckin sick nasty. i feel like goin out liek that right now. ne ways. im just sittin here and checkin evan's live journal. oh shit man. i was calmed earlier but that shit just stirred somethin up in me. she was talking about hanging out w/ alex and charlie and tyler. FUCK THAT. she wants to just move on w/ them than let her. talkin about she's in love w/ somebody but wont tell who. i guess if we were together for a year and a half and she can just move on 2 weeks later than i didnt mean a damn thing to her. i dont know if she's playing that fucking game to make me jealous or ne thing and if she is than it is damn well working. im a jealous dude already but ive been trying to play it cool the spring break. trying not to let it get to me and shit but man i cant take it anymore. she put that shit knowing ill read it and knowing wut kinda dude i am already. i dont know if its the drinks in me talking now or not but i...i dont know what to say. ive been thinking about it all the time and its like i want to just move on so it wont hurt anymore but i cant. i cant just let go of a year and a half relationship outa my life with the person i loved more than life itself. and like right now i feel like nothing. right now im feelin like busting some fucking skulls. i cant stop thinking about it. i feel liek crying now. i dont know how she can just fucking forget about a long ass realationship liek that and jsut stoart loving somebody 2 FUCKING WEEKS AVERT IT. oh man im tired.if this shit continues till school starts backup next eweek, somebudy.s gona get ther ass beat. IM FUCKIN COMING BITCH!