I hate this feeling..
I hate the feeling of being possibly played.. it did happen. Someone made me think there could be more between 'us', but it was just an act. They were thinking of the other as we were spending the day/night together.. I feel foolish. My heart can't be played anymore with.. I feel weak inside as if another thing occurred I don't know how my actions will react to it. Yea- I will get a friendship out of this 'one' compare to my last, who pretty much just left me in the dust. I'll never figure out people. I'll never figure out why people act the way they do & say the opposite of their actions. Please.. don't tell me you 'love' me unless you mean it! Don't try to please me or get around the situation. Tell me the truth! I don't deserve more hurt, but I rather know what's the truth than be lied to.
Crazy thing is.. I still will admit 'I love them' & I'm going to go through a life still wantin to be more, but I'll have to just put those feelings aside. I can't scare this one off. If all we can be is just friends.. than I guess that's the way it is. They are worth the waiting for.. better yet worth the pain, & worth to keep this friendship alive.
Now- I just I need to learn not to go to the limits.. there's now a package that can't be stopped that's on its way to their house tomorrow.. I don't know how they will react to it, but I guess me by warning them would make up for it. I hope they forgive me on my actions.. tho they are for good.
If they still take me as their friend.. than I'll just have to show them I'll never leave them no matter what. They didn't scare me away.. but just helped me grow stronger. Tho, at the moment I may not feel it.. I'll sooner or later will & may thank them one day. That's my life right now. I just hope time will past & I can bring this behind me, so I can move forward.
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*Please..don't play with anyone's heart or lead them onto somethin that's not true.. The feelin of being played or having your heart shatter..is not worth going through the pain & confusion it leads onto. For me & everyone else.. don't be like those who do it. Don't doubt your love for another.. try it or cut off from it in the beginning before it gets too late.*
Crazy thing is.. I still will admit 'I love them' & I'm going to go through a life still wantin to be more, but I'll have to just put those feelings aside. I can't scare this one off. If all we can be is just friends.. than I guess that's the way it is. They are worth the waiting for.. better yet worth the pain, & worth to keep this friendship alive.
Now- I just I need to learn not to go to the limits.. there's now a package that can't be stopped that's on its way to their house tomorrow.. I don't know how they will react to it, but I guess me by warning them would make up for it. I hope they forgive me on my actions.. tho they are for good.
If they still take me as their friend.. than I'll just have to show them I'll never leave them no matter what. They didn't scare me away.. but just helped me grow stronger. Tho, at the moment I may not feel it.. I'll sooner or later will & may thank them one day. That's my life right now. I just hope time will past & I can bring this behind me, so I can move forward.
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*Please..don't play with anyone's heart or lead them onto somethin that's not true.. The feelin of being played or having your heart shatter..is not worth going through the pain & confusion it leads onto. For me & everyone else.. don't be like those who do it. Don't doubt your love for another.. try it or cut off from it in the beginning before it gets too late.*