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~Spring 06' is coming to an end now.. just 2 more weeks to go with classes and finals. I've been on one heck of an emotional rollar coaster ride throughout my first semester up here at FSU. Classes have been stressful and I'm worried the possibility of not doin so well. But yea-- It all boils down to how well I keep up with grades on when I can graduate, which I'm aiming for next May (Spring 07'). **Crosses fingers** For Fall 06', I'm signed up for 15 credits once again. Taking classes which include: Introduction to Therapeutic Rec, Research Methods in Recreation, Organization & Admin, Soci- Social Problems, and psyc-- Adolescence and Adulthood. Mainly one thing I look forward to Fall 06' is my future roomies.. Luv ya all!
~Sorority Life has been going great.. I truly love my AZD sisters. Had our formal just this past saturday, which I had to force myself into a dress.. not totally my ideal of fun, but I had some good times dancing with my sisters. Had a lil date issues for the formal, dress fallin apart, and other things that made that night a bit rough, but except that.. I had a good time. These past few days spending with my sisters I hear others talking about how very few days of classes/finals are left for them.. it makes me sad knowing that summer is coming and this fall is so far away. Yea- glad for classes ending soon, but sad about not being able to spend time together with my sisters. I'll of course see them over the summer, but there'll be time in between where I'm going to miss them oh so much.
~Thinking time could kill the pain that was placed upon me when my heart shattered. My heart now yearns for another that I can't have. I question, why the Lord would place me in these certain situations as if He's playing the game 'Life' and I'm one of the color cars trying to get to the other side. Am surprised that these past few months I haven't lost certain people for words coming out of my mouth, which scared many in the past year. Maybe there are those people who aren't influenced by today's society when it places people in categories.. Tho, you'd think the word 'love' should be the only thing that matters between two people, but it seems to be more than that.
~I know I can't make anyone fall for me or be so lucky as I was in the past relationship, but you can't help wanting those possibilities to occur once again. It felt so mutual.. those feelings were there. I definitely don't want to relive the ending, but everything before that I'd relive it over and over again if I could. I miss having that adventure.. I felt alive. Till this day now, I'm in complete darkness.. unaware of what's to come for the future. Trying to take a day at time and praying that the day I don't expect it to happen.. it be the day it does. That I'll find the other half that I thought I had. Just pray for me.. that's all I ask of anyone. I'm just lost & confused in my own world.
~ If only others can give me a chance.. but I know I can't ask them of it. Its there decision if they'll accept me for who I am and allow me to show what I could be..
~Sorority Life has been going great.. I truly love my AZD sisters. Had our formal just this past saturday, which I had to force myself into a dress.. not totally my ideal of fun, but I had some good times dancing with my sisters. Had a lil date issues for the formal, dress fallin apart, and other things that made that night a bit rough, but except that.. I had a good time. These past few days spending with my sisters I hear others talking about how very few days of classes/finals are left for them.. it makes me sad knowing that summer is coming and this fall is so far away. Yea- glad for classes ending soon, but sad about not being able to spend time together with my sisters. I'll of course see them over the summer, but there'll be time in between where I'm going to miss them oh so much.
~Thinking time could kill the pain that was placed upon me when my heart shattered. My heart now yearns for another that I can't have. I question, why the Lord would place me in these certain situations as if He's playing the game 'Life' and I'm one of the color cars trying to get to the other side. Am surprised that these past few months I haven't lost certain people for words coming out of my mouth, which scared many in the past year. Maybe there are those people who aren't influenced by today's society when it places people in categories.. Tho, you'd think the word 'love' should be the only thing that matters between two people, but it seems to be more than that.
~I know I can't make anyone fall for me or be so lucky as I was in the past relationship, but you can't help wanting those possibilities to occur once again. It felt so mutual.. those feelings were there. I definitely don't want to relive the ending, but everything before that I'd relive it over and over again if I could. I miss having that adventure.. I felt alive. Till this day now, I'm in complete darkness.. unaware of what's to come for the future. Trying to take a day at time and praying that the day I don't expect it to happen.. it be the day it does. That I'll find the other half that I thought I had. Just pray for me.. that's all I ask of anyone. I'm just lost & confused in my own world.
~ If only others can give me a chance.. but I know I can't ask them of it. Its there decision if they'll accept me for who I am and allow me to show what I could be..