Another update from FSU...
Still single and hurtin.. except for all that.. things are going pretty good. Life at burg is going well. I went out for rush this week and ended out having one bid from Alpha Xi Delta. Tonight was bid night, so I had to choose to accept or try again next semester. I at first will admit I wasn't really sure which sorority I'd go for because I had two in mind one was Alpha Xi Delta and the other was Delta Zeta. I had in my mind that I wanted DZ, but didn't realize that going with AZD was probably my best choice. I accepted it and went out tonight to show that I wanted to give them a chance. They were a great group of girls and I'm at this moment where I need all the support I can get. I've been struggling a lot lately, having trouble sleeping, and just breakin down now & then.
You can't help who you fall in love for and there's no way stopping me. I'm having trouble moving on with my life, but I'm trying. My heart is still in millions of pieces and my mind is in a state of confusion/lost. I don't know how long I can not call that person up and tell them I miss them.. But, I'm following the advice from the few friends that make my life complete and just allowing space & time for that person to miss me. Later on next week I'll finally meet someone in person who I've been chattin with through facebook & AIM and we'll see how that goes. I'm going to try not to put myself out there because I just don't know how much more pain I can deal with/rejection. I just hope and pray that one day my phone will go off and that one person will be on the other end like old times. *I miss you and I love you very much.. I don't know if you ever read this anymore, but if you do.. please don't hesitate to hit me up when you miss me. I know I miss you 24/7!*
This week has been a long and busy one so far while being up here at burg. I don't know how I've been able to get through each day with very little sleep and motivation. I got to talk with my brother by cell earlier tonight and it was nice to chat with him again. I got to tell him how things been going and he as always gave me advice on things that I'm struggling on. Tomorrow, probably be the day I do my own thing, since there seems to be no one around to really go out of my way to enjoy myself. Gonna push myself out the door.. go shopping for my mother's b-day gift, get a haircut, get more food in this joint, and possibly get more warm clothes for this cold weather. I love my roommates, but this past week I just had that feelin where you can be surrounded by many people, but still feel so alone.
Tonight, even tho it's already late.. gonna make myself watch a comedy dvd and then get some rest. I just hope everyone out there who reads this that you all have a wonderful night and that life is treating you well. I pray that none of you are dealin with any sort of pain, but happiness that everyone is wanting/lookin for in life. Have the sweetest of dreams! *hugs*
You can't help who you fall in love for and there's no way stopping me. I'm having trouble moving on with my life, but I'm trying. My heart is still in millions of pieces and my mind is in a state of confusion/lost. I don't know how long I can not call that person up and tell them I miss them.. But, I'm following the advice from the few friends that make my life complete and just allowing space & time for that person to miss me. Later on next week I'll finally meet someone in person who I've been chattin with through facebook & AIM and we'll see how that goes. I'm going to try not to put myself out there because I just don't know how much more pain I can deal with/rejection. I just hope and pray that one day my phone will go off and that one person will be on the other end like old times. *I miss you and I love you very much.. I don't know if you ever read this anymore, but if you do.. please don't hesitate to hit me up when you miss me. I know I miss you 24/7!*
This week has been a long and busy one so far while being up here at burg. I don't know how I've been able to get through each day with very little sleep and motivation. I got to talk with my brother by cell earlier tonight and it was nice to chat with him again. I got to tell him how things been going and he as always gave me advice on things that I'm struggling on. Tomorrow, probably be the day I do my own thing, since there seems to be no one around to really go out of my way to enjoy myself. Gonna push myself out the door.. go shopping for my mother's b-day gift, get a haircut, get more food in this joint, and possibly get more warm clothes for this cold weather. I love my roommates, but this past week I just had that feelin where you can be surrounded by many people, but still feel so alone.
Tonight, even tho it's already late.. gonna make myself watch a comedy dvd and then get some rest. I just hope everyone out there who reads this that you all have a wonderful night and that life is treating you well. I pray that none of you are dealin with any sort of pain, but happiness that everyone is wanting/lookin for in life. Have the sweetest of dreams! *hugs*