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I feel shitty now.. not sure if a comp kicked someone off or maybe it was just a sign that they rather sleep than talk to me.. I know I shouldn't feel/think this way..
But gosh darn it.. "I miss you oh soo much!!" This hurt I'm feelin doesn't seem to want to go away and maybe it's tellin me "you're the one".. or maybe I'm an idiot to believe that what happened was real. I'm sorry.. off I go soundin foolish. I haven't had a decent sleep for a very long time now. Why am I the only one showing the weakness of the word "love".. I know it's still mutual between us or is it just me now. *sigh* I just hope you haven't forgotten what we had or what it was. I miss you and it seems you'll always have my heart.
You realize more on what you had when it's gone.. tho, I knew it all along.
I don't want to be here anymore or anywhere if I can't be with someone. I don't see my reason anymore.
*stares off in the distance.. *
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Doin the usual for Thanksgivin with the relative/fam and doin a lil somethin differ havin a second one with my bro's gf & her parents while they're in town. -How can u be thankful for something when it seems that you don't have it anymore or its no longer there in ur reach?- Still have no regrets, now just hate anythin that has to do with "doubts" esp., when it really was perfect.. just obstacles that would need to be overcome. Part of will never get it and another part of me understands it. Just why couldn't we have tried at least??
But gosh darn it.. "I miss you oh soo much!!" This hurt I'm feelin doesn't seem to want to go away and maybe it's tellin me "you're the one".. or maybe I'm an idiot to believe that what happened was real. I'm sorry.. off I go soundin foolish. I haven't had a decent sleep for a very long time now. Why am I the only one showing the weakness of the word "love".. I know it's still mutual between us or is it just me now. *sigh* I just hope you haven't forgotten what we had or what it was. I miss you and it seems you'll always have my heart.
You realize more on what you had when it's gone.. tho, I knew it all along.
I don't want to be here anymore or anywhere if I can't be with someone. I don't see my reason anymore.
*stares off in the distance.. *
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Doin the usual for Thanksgivin with the relative/fam and doin a lil somethin differ havin a second one with my bro's gf & her parents while they're in town. -How can u be thankful for something when it seems that you don't have it anymore or its no longer there in ur reach?- Still have no regrets, now just hate anythin that has to do with "doubts" esp., when it really was perfect.. just obstacles that would need to be overcome. Part of will never get it and another part of me understands it. Just why couldn't we have tried at least??