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It's been a long time since I've written...
I just wanted to say a few things.
First off, quitting smoking is the hardest thing to do, ever. This is my third or fourth attempt, but I'm more commited to actually doing it this time then ever. Although I still play on smoking when I'm high ;) But that's the only time I think it's going to be acceptable for me from now on.
Second, I moved just a while ago... Still getting settled in. Those of you who know Portland, I'm just off of Belmont and 29th. I couldn't love the neighborhood more.
Third, Portland General Electro owns all of you. And I'm not just saying that because my new neighbor does the beats. Check out a few MP3s of these kids, they'll kick your ass. I've known Chris, my new neighbor, for quite a while now, but had missed out on seeing them live until last weekend... God damn. I haven't danced that hard in months. I wish I had the $18 to go see them at their charity show this weekend, but I'm too broke to eat... Although if I had the money, I'd seriously consider skipping a meal or four just to see these guys play, they're that good.
Fourth, and most importantly... I've given up on being close to most of my "true friends". I really hate to say it, but I've tried getting in touch with so many of them, so many times, and not heard a word back. That's not to say I'm giving up on any of them as people, I never could... Only that I've given up on the idea of them wanting to be that close to me. So if you're one of the people I've considered family (and you know who you are), and you still want anything to do with me, let me know... Because if not, I'm cutting my ties, and forging on to make new connections with the people I've met lately. You guys have meant the world to me over the past few years, but it's seemed like not many people have wanted anything to do with me. If that's the case, whatever... I've already grown used to that fact, accepted it, and moved on. Not to say it doesn't hurt, not to say I won't miss all of you, but the past is the past, and all you have to look forward to is the future. I'll miss anyone who's left behind more then words can say, you were all my family more then my blood has ever been, and you'll all have an incredibly special place in my heart. But even family have to go their seperate ways. Whatever it may be, I wish you all nothing but the best, and know that you'll have nothing but respect from me until the day I die. Namaste.
On that note, this journal is going mostly private now... Not like I've written much lately anyway, but I expect that most of what I write from now on will be shared with a very select few.
Peace everyone, and may you find nothing but happiness in your lives.
-Ryan
I just wanted to say a few things.
First off, quitting smoking is the hardest thing to do, ever. This is my third or fourth attempt, but I'm more commited to actually doing it this time then ever. Although I still play on smoking when I'm high ;) But that's the only time I think it's going to be acceptable for me from now on.
Second, I moved just a while ago... Still getting settled in. Those of you who know Portland, I'm just off of Belmont and 29th. I couldn't love the neighborhood more.
Third, Portland General Electro owns all of you. And I'm not just saying that because my new neighbor does the beats. Check out a few MP3s of these kids, they'll kick your ass. I've known Chris, my new neighbor, for quite a while now, but had missed out on seeing them live until last weekend... God damn. I haven't danced that hard in months. I wish I had the $18 to go see them at their charity show this weekend, but I'm too broke to eat... Although if I had the money, I'd seriously consider skipping a meal or four just to see these guys play, they're that good.
Fourth, and most importantly... I've given up on being close to most of my "true friends". I really hate to say it, but I've tried getting in touch with so many of them, so many times, and not heard a word back. That's not to say I'm giving up on any of them as people, I never could... Only that I've given up on the idea of them wanting to be that close to me. So if you're one of the people I've considered family (and you know who you are), and you still want anything to do with me, let me know... Because if not, I'm cutting my ties, and forging on to make new connections with the people I've met lately. You guys have meant the world to me over the past few years, but it's seemed like not many people have wanted anything to do with me. If that's the case, whatever... I've already grown used to that fact, accepted it, and moved on. Not to say it doesn't hurt, not to say I won't miss all of you, but the past is the past, and all you have to look forward to is the future. I'll miss anyone who's left behind more then words can say, you were all my family more then my blood has ever been, and you'll all have an incredibly special place in my heart. But even family have to go their seperate ways. Whatever it may be, I wish you all nothing but the best, and know that you'll have nothing but respect from me until the day I die. Namaste.
On that note, this journal is going mostly private now... Not like I've written much lately anyway, but I expect that most of what I write from now on will be shared with a very select few.
Peace everyone, and may you find nothing but happiness in your lives.
-Ryan