Damn it feels good to be a gangsta
I got woken up this afternoon (yeah, yeah, I'm lazy...) by a marching band full of gutter punk kids outside my house. Remember what I was saying about seeing something so unexpected it's beautiful? ;)
Speaking of the unexpected... It was Andy's birthday party at Ridley's house last night... For those of you who don't know the situation, shortly after Ridley and I split up, I was hoping to go to Seattle and spend some time with Andy and his roommate, Ted. These guys are kind of behind the scenes in our little desert collective... When I tried getting in touch, I was told that I was "not welcome at their house", with this supposedly coming from Ted. Anyway, we hadn't really talked or anything since then, until I walked into my house yesterday and he was standing there with one of my roommates.
No mention of me not being welcome, no talk of Ridley, no drama. We chilled and talked for a minute, drama free, and probably got along better than we ever have. I just have to say: What the fuck?!? It could just be that we were in MY house this time, and the tables were kind of turned, but I still don't think he would have been that chill with me. I'm a good judge of where people are at, and this seemed genuinely good.
I don't know if it's related or not, I think it may be, but I've been told by a few people that the tide is starting to turn against Ridley and her drama/lies, so to speak... (I know I haven't really gone into the things that I heard she had been saying here, mainly because I know some of our mutual friends will read this, and I don't feel like it's right to say anything that could be taken as me talking shit or trying to influence people's opinions, but needless to say, she crossed a line there) A couple people have told me they feel like they don't know who she really is, and like they can't trust a word that comes out of her mouth anymore. I don't want people to dislike her by any means, and I don't want there to be any drama, there's absolutely no need for any of it, but damn it, I want to get back out in the fucking desert! I need that place and those people... I definitely feel like at least a few steps in that direction have been made, so I can't help but being anything but happy about that :) I'm sure there's still a long way to go though... I really don't see any reason why we both couldn't go and coexist peacefully. I know I'm perfectly capable :)
Oh, and to add a quote: "Damn it feels good to be a gangsta!" - Geto Boys ;)
Speaking of the unexpected... It was Andy's birthday party at Ridley's house last night... For those of you who don't know the situation, shortly after Ridley and I split up, I was hoping to go to Seattle and spend some time with Andy and his roommate, Ted. These guys are kind of behind the scenes in our little desert collective... When I tried getting in touch, I was told that I was "not welcome at their house", with this supposedly coming from Ted. Anyway, we hadn't really talked or anything since then, until I walked into my house yesterday and he was standing there with one of my roommates.
No mention of me not being welcome, no talk of Ridley, no drama. We chilled and talked for a minute, drama free, and probably got along better than we ever have. I just have to say: What the fuck?!? It could just be that we were in MY house this time, and the tables were kind of turned, but I still don't think he would have been that chill with me. I'm a good judge of where people are at, and this seemed genuinely good.
I don't know if it's related or not, I think it may be, but I've been told by a few people that the tide is starting to turn against Ridley and her drama/lies, so to speak... (I know I haven't really gone into the things that I heard she had been saying here, mainly because I know some of our mutual friends will read this, and I don't feel like it's right to say anything that could be taken as me talking shit or trying to influence people's opinions, but needless to say, she crossed a line there) A couple people have told me they feel like they don't know who she really is, and like they can't trust a word that comes out of her mouth anymore. I don't want people to dislike her by any means, and I don't want there to be any drama, there's absolutely no need for any of it, but damn it, I want to get back out in the fucking desert! I need that place and those people... I definitely feel like at least a few steps in that direction have been made, so I can't help but being anything but happy about that :) I'm sure there's still a long way to go though... I really don't see any reason why we both couldn't go and coexist peacefully. I know I'm perfectly capable :)
Oh, and to add a quote: "Damn it feels good to be a gangsta!" - Geto Boys ;)