dear friends
Can I just tell you how much I love you guys? To those of you who have recently been there for me or made me laugh or shown me you need me, I am so glad to have you.
If you recently spent your lunch hour lending me an ear, or voluntarily spent 1/2 hour texting me to make sure I was okay while you were out with your friends (both the same person), if you recently commented on my facebook or sent me a myspace message saying hey I miss you, if you agreed to write old school letters because we just don't have time to talk anymore, if you called me the second you got back from your honeymoon in jamaica and told me to chill the fuck out (you have no idea how happy that made me), if you agreed to drive up from provo just to go to a haunted house with me, if you offered to help me move and even brought over a tape measure to make sure my furniture would fit without me even asking you to, if you transported my bed for me (my parents), if you recently bought me a present for no apparent reason other than that you were thinking of me, if you called me for advice and consolation, if you lifted my spirits by instant messaging me with a lot of laughter while you were going through hard times yourself, if you sought me out and apologized for how you treated me four years ago (two people), to 3 of my dearest friends who have been a mutual source of support and laughter this week when we needed it, or if you just plain have been posting bulletins that have had me cracking up (and chances are you have), I want to say Thank You.
All of those things have happened for me recently, mostly just in this past week. I am feeling much happier and more loved than I did a week or two ago, and I've remembered/realized how loved I am and how many people truly care about me. And I mostly want to say thank you to the people have stuck with me through this summer, even though I ignored and neglected a lot of my closest friends. I found out who truly loves me and who doesn't because in the end the people who wanted me were still there, they understood and forgave me for not being there for them all summer. I'm sorry.
And to my new friends (mostly May and onward), I wish we were closer. I feel left out of a lot of things even though I know I'm welcome to join. I want you to know that I truly care about you and want to be better friends instead of just hanging out at bars together once every week or so.
And to all of my old friends, I mean old friends that I really never talk to, there is a reason you can still read this. I want us to stay friends for life, but I want us to talk and play and be active in each other's lives, not just be a familiar face online.
And to my broken relationships, I miss you and this is stupid. Let's forget about it.
Love, Niki
If you recently spent your lunch hour lending me an ear, or voluntarily spent 1/2 hour texting me to make sure I was okay while you were out with your friends (both the same person), if you recently commented on my facebook or sent me a myspace message saying hey I miss you, if you agreed to write old school letters because we just don't have time to talk anymore, if you called me the second you got back from your honeymoon in jamaica and told me to chill the fuck out (you have no idea how happy that made me), if you agreed to drive up from provo just to go to a haunted house with me, if you offered to help me move and even brought over a tape measure to make sure my furniture would fit without me even asking you to, if you transported my bed for me (my parents), if you recently bought me a present for no apparent reason other than that you were thinking of me, if you called me for advice and consolation, if you lifted my spirits by instant messaging me with a lot of laughter while you were going through hard times yourself, if you sought me out and apologized for how you treated me four years ago (two people), to 3 of my dearest friends who have been a mutual source of support and laughter this week when we needed it, or if you just plain have been posting bulletins that have had me cracking up (and chances are you have), I want to say Thank You.
All of those things have happened for me recently, mostly just in this past week. I am feeling much happier and more loved than I did a week or two ago, and I've remembered/realized how loved I am and how many people truly care about me. And I mostly want to say thank you to the people have stuck with me through this summer, even though I ignored and neglected a lot of my closest friends. I found out who truly loves me and who doesn't because in the end the people who wanted me were still there, they understood and forgave me for not being there for them all summer. I'm sorry.
And to my new friends (mostly May and onward), I wish we were closer. I feel left out of a lot of things even though I know I'm welcome to join. I want you to know that I truly care about you and want to be better friends instead of just hanging out at bars together once every week or so.
And to all of my old friends, I mean old friends that I really never talk to, there is a reason you can still read this. I want us to stay friends for life, but I want us to talk and play and be active in each other's lives, not just be a familiar face online.
And to my broken relationships, I miss you and this is stupid. Let's forget about it.
Love, Niki