God the ...mother?
for those of you who are sick of hearing me say "I'm going to start taking the bus," well... I actually started taking the bus today (finally). a lotta thoughts about it, but it can all be summed up in a few phrases... anxiety, hyper-vigilance, white guilt, gender/race/class, my white/class privilege, reading, sweatiness, stankiness, not having to drive in rush hour traffic, saving gas/emissions, walking.
there's this one nurse i work with who drives me fucking crazy. she's got pretty much no common sense, she's very very very passive aggressive, she's not professional with our patients (i.e. she tells them they need to turn to god and she offers to take them to church with her), she doesn't set boundaries or limits with problem patients, she's enabling of our patients, and she's always treating me and this other tech like we are stupid and don't know anything (she didn't know who ghandi was ok?).
So today i was sitting on a 1:1 with a patient who thinks she's G-d and stuff. This nurse, who's been a little more on her power trips than usual lately, comes over to talk to her. here's how the conversation goes.
RN: How are you today?
Patient: I'm blessed.
RN: Amen. (some more blessed conversation i can't really remember)
RN: Are you hearing any voices still?
P: Only God's. She's telling me to be good and do right.
RN: That's good.
(somehow here the conversation got to God's gender)
P: God's a woman
RN: God's not really either. The Bible doesn't really say either way.
P: She speaks to me.
RN: Well the Bible refers to God as the Father, and have you really ever seen any women who are fathers?
P: I don't know
RN: Come on Ms. so-and-so you know that's crazy talk. God's the Father.
(i'm wanting to puke at this time...)
P: I don't know. She speaks to me.
RN: OK. Here's your meds.
This nurse fucking drives me crazy. So much of what she does is unethical. and when I call her out on it, she just acts as if I'm really stupid and that I don't know anything about nursing or mental health or anything at all for that matter. Thank g-d for my self esteem that is held up by my fellow techs and other nurses.
and i'm feeling really lazy right now. i soooo don't wanna clean my apartment. but i must!