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Well, this is probably the safest time to be all meta, isn't it? The time to talk about myself in the first person, in the present tense. I can talk about the fact that I'm writing this for the purpose of submitting it to LJ Idol. It takes off a lot of the pressure.
I feel a lot of pressure, a lot of the time. Sometimes for good reason, I guess. Sometimes... for no reason at all.
I'm a teacher - middle school, English, Special Education. The teaching itself isn't a source of pressure. That's the fun part - the easy part. It's the paperwork that's hard. That, and keeping the parents happy.
I'm a mom - first-timer. I love it. I have it pretty good - supportive partner, good child-care situation. Still a lot of pressure.
Then there's the general dread of "being an adult" (I'm almost 40). Bills and paperwork and all that. It's not my strength.
I feel like that scene in "What Women Want", where Mel Gibson's character starts to realize how much time every woman he sees is spending on being stressed out, and just worrying. That hit home. That feels like me.
I consider myself a happy person. I love my life. But I'm always thinking. And when I'm not thinking of fanfic that I'll never write down, or imagining what I'd do with lottery winnings, I'm thinking about how much of the world I can't do a thing to save, or planning and worrying and trying to keep it all together.
So that's me.
I feel a lot of pressure, a lot of the time. Sometimes for good reason, I guess. Sometimes... for no reason at all.
I'm a teacher - middle school, English, Special Education. The teaching itself isn't a source of pressure. That's the fun part - the easy part. It's the paperwork that's hard. That, and keeping the parents happy.
I'm a mom - first-timer. I love it. I have it pretty good - supportive partner, good child-care situation. Still a lot of pressure.
Then there's the general dread of "being an adult" (I'm almost 40). Bills and paperwork and all that. It's not my strength.
I feel like that scene in "What Women Want", where Mel Gibson's character starts to realize how much time every woman he sees is spending on being stressed out, and just worrying. That hit home. That feels like me.
I consider myself a happy person. I love my life. But I'm always thinking. And when I'm not thinking of fanfic that I'll never write down, or imagining what I'd do with lottery winnings, I'm thinking about how much of the world I can't do a thing to save, or planning and worrying and trying to keep it all together.
So that's me.