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I think it's pretty fucking hard to put into words what has happened these past few days, but I'll do my best. I was never good at this in the first place. Bare with me assholes.
A couple nights ago I started talking to Brody. We were talking about a few things, what I don't remember. I used to always feel like an idiot talking to her because she's obviously a lot fucking smarter than me, and plus I didn't exactly want to make an ass of myself infront of somebody I liked.
She's the only woman who really calls out to me. Everyone else is just there, and she's... above them all. That sounds kind of retarded, but I am sure some of you know what the hell I'm talking about. I convinced myself I wouldn't think about her in that way anymore, and it worked for a while. I told myself there was no chance in hell that I'd get a shot being with her. She seemed pretty... taken.
I don't know why the fuck it took me so long, but I finally got the balls to tell her how I feel. I didn't even really mean to either... it just came out. I thought she was going to say I was a silly fuck for feeling that way, but she didn't. I wasn't expecting her to feel the same way. Total fucking shock there.
To sum it all up, we're together now. I couldn't be happier. I just hope I can give her what she deserves. She's so fucking amazing, I can't believe I'm with somebody like her. Hopefully I don't fuck this all up. I'm not used to being in a relationship where I actually care about the person the way I do about her. I'm probably going to turn into this huge nerd because I don't know how to handle all of these feelings I have. Constant butterflies, that nervous feeling... I haven't had this happen to me before.
Hopefully Tony and Andy don't hate me for this, or think it's totally fucked up. I won't be surprised if one of them call me a silly fuck, but that'd be kind of funny anyway. I don't want the band to change because of this either, so hopefully shit doesn't get messy. I'm happy for once, and nobody can fucking take this away from me. I already declared my love for Brody's legs to Tony, so I don't think this will be much of a surprise to him. He's a smart, smart man. I almost idolize him.
And now it's time to re-adjust myself back to the LA way. I'm going to have a few showers, eat until I want to explode, and then maybe claim Brody for a little while.
A couple nights ago I started talking to Brody. We were talking about a few things, what I don't remember. I used to always feel like an idiot talking to her because she's obviously a lot fucking smarter than me, and plus I didn't exactly want to make an ass of myself infront of somebody I liked.
She's the only woman who really calls out to me. Everyone else is just there, and she's... above them all. That sounds kind of retarded, but I am sure some of you know what the hell I'm talking about. I convinced myself I wouldn't think about her in that way anymore, and it worked for a while. I told myself there was no chance in hell that I'd get a shot being with her. She seemed pretty... taken.
I don't know why the fuck it took me so long, but I finally got the balls to tell her how I feel. I didn't even really mean to either... it just came out. I thought she was going to say I was a silly fuck for feeling that way, but she didn't. I wasn't expecting her to feel the same way. Total fucking shock there.
To sum it all up, we're together now. I couldn't be happier. I just hope I can give her what she deserves. She's so fucking amazing, I can't believe I'm with somebody like her. Hopefully I don't fuck this all up. I'm not used to being in a relationship where I actually care about the person the way I do about her. I'm probably going to turn into this huge nerd because I don't know how to handle all of these feelings I have. Constant butterflies, that nervous feeling... I haven't had this happen to me before.
Hopefully Tony and Andy don't hate me for this, or think it's totally fucked up. I won't be surprised if one of them call me a silly fuck, but that'd be kind of funny anyway. I don't want the band to change because of this either, so hopefully shit doesn't get messy. I'm happy for once, and nobody can fucking take this away from me. I already declared my love for Brody's legs to Tony, so I don't think this will be much of a surprise to him. He's a smart, smart man. I almost idolize him.
And now it's time to re-adjust myself back to the LA way. I'm going to have a few showers, eat until I want to explode, and then maybe claim Brody for a little while.