yesterday, kevin
last time that I looked I was leaving Bryan becuase I wanted to feel what I was feeling for Daniel my coworker - for BRYAN. I couldn't though.
Did that make sense?
I LIKED bryan - but had a CRUSH on daniel *i would smile when he looked my way, wanted to flirt with him, etc*
it eventually made me leave Bryan.
then I thought to myself that I needed to just look at life objectively for a second. I AM twenty one - I have a whole life to live and be serious about home payments, relocating, driving, adjusting - all that. UNLESS i feel so compelled by my feelings for another - why would I make those kinds of changes and sacrafices? It does not make sense to. I decided that I would just start living life all for me, doing the things that I need (with of course respect to the priority of friends, family, and jesus) above ALL things.
then I was chatting around online - just kinda passing the day yesterday and I got a message from this guy named kevin - for our purposes - cal . First thing to say is that he likes to talk, which at least aids in the 'getting to know you' - i found out he's a political science graduate of cal berkely - as of this past december. He's just moved home - never really had a boyfriend - likes baseball - and sounded like a borderline conservative republican. We meet, and Im suprised to find there's something in his eyes that take mine. From the second we hung out - we spoke to one another like we had known eachother for ages - bullshiting about all sorts of things - and having conversations that only two poltical science majors could. We ended up at the infomus sky farm make out spot. So, we made out. I got home last night, and found a crush.
Acrush. what!
Tonight he made smile - I don't know why.
OTHER news:
it's been fun to have derek back in town - we are playing catch up and doing what we do best; working out together, eating, laughing, talking, idealizing. It's been fun. heather's back in town as of today, i'm excited to get to see her this week. work is great, it seems to just keep getting better since eric took over. turner is doing good, he went hydroplaning today. my laundry was done today, i feel so accomplished. My mom had to have to car towed to her mechanic, so i spent her time waiting for the tow truck with her. When she go to the mechanics and dropped her key in the drop-off slot, she set off the mechanics alarm system. I laughed while she stressed out. Me and derek braved the monsoon tonight to work out and eat some innout. Ive got a full day tomorrow, i should get some sleep. THe weather here like I said, has been horrible: wind, rain, more wind, more rain. I love it, it's a good time for this kind of weather - i just hope it's nice next week for my spring break -i'm wanting major sunshine.
Did that make sense?
I LIKED bryan - but had a CRUSH on daniel *i would smile when he looked my way, wanted to flirt with him, etc*
it eventually made me leave Bryan.
then I thought to myself that I needed to just look at life objectively for a second. I AM twenty one - I have a whole life to live and be serious about home payments, relocating, driving, adjusting - all that. UNLESS i feel so compelled by my feelings for another - why would I make those kinds of changes and sacrafices? It does not make sense to. I decided that I would just start living life all for me, doing the things that I need (with of course respect to the priority of friends, family, and jesus) above ALL things.
then I was chatting around online - just kinda passing the day yesterday and I got a message from this guy named kevin - for our purposes - cal . First thing to say is that he likes to talk, which at least aids in the 'getting to know you' - i found out he's a political science graduate of cal berkely - as of this past december. He's just moved home - never really had a boyfriend - likes baseball - and sounded like a borderline conservative republican. We meet, and Im suprised to find there's something in his eyes that take mine. From the second we hung out - we spoke to one another like we had known eachother for ages - bullshiting about all sorts of things - and having conversations that only two poltical science majors could. We ended up at the infomus sky farm make out spot. So, we made out. I got home last night, and found a crush.
Acrush. what!
Tonight he made smile - I don't know why.
OTHER news:
it's been fun to have derek back in town - we are playing catch up and doing what we do best; working out together, eating, laughing, talking, idealizing. It's been fun. heather's back in town as of today, i'm excited to get to see her this week. work is great, it seems to just keep getting better since eric took over. turner is doing good, he went hydroplaning today. my laundry was done today, i feel so accomplished. My mom had to have to car towed to her mechanic, so i spent her time waiting for the tow truck with her. When she go to the mechanics and dropped her key in the drop-off slot, she set off the mechanics alarm system. I laughed while she stressed out. Me and derek braved the monsoon tonight to work out and eat some innout. Ive got a full day tomorrow, i should get some sleep. THe weather here like I said, has been horrible: wind, rain, more wind, more rain. I love it, it's a good time for this kind of weather - i just hope it's nice next week for my spring break -i'm wanting major sunshine.