Regrets
I will begin with what i have been up to latly. Recently i just ate an apple fruit pie by drake's. Well thats that. Now the title is regrets, so that is what i am going to write about becuase if the title says it i just have to do it. There is no other way. You may be assuming that i have done something recently that i regret but no, i havent done anything recently that i regret, it is just that regret came back today and punched me in the balls. Ok that may be a little over doing it, it is more like regret came back today and it was kind of surprizing, i didnt really expect it too all of a sudden be there, but it was. Sorry, but i am not going to recall the event to all of you, but i am always willing to talk about stuff, you know one on one, the internet is just to impersonal. I will say though that there only 3 things that i regret from my life. So 20 years and only three things i regret, i dont know about you but i dont think that that is a lot of stuff. But then again out of those 20 years of my life only the past 7-8 years i feel i had the chances to make decision and thus have regrets and success and all those other emotions. So actually in 7 years there are 3 main things i regret. It used to be that i didnt regret anything, i always felt that regret is the most useless emotion to have, but things have changed as i have grown and now i see the use and truth that regrets brings if you can actually look at it for a while and think about why you feel all of these emotions. That last sentence is wicked long. The reasons why i used to feel that regret was useless is because i thought the past was the past and now is now. So regret, which focuses on the past was a useless emotion. But as i grow older i saw that was a silly idea. The now is ofcourse now, but in order to make good decisions in the now, you have to understand your past, and understand what you want in the future. So now with this mentallity the use of regret is clear, i regret things that i feel i really messed up, stuff that i completly dropped the ball on. Stuff i would never want to mess up again. The reason i feel regret is to remind myself to not do what i have done before. This i find to be very useful.
Now more on my 3 regrets from my life, which i will talk about but not give any names or places becuase they are personal and personal thing should be talked about personally. One interesting aspect about my regrets is that i dont feel bad in anyway of having them; like i said i find these regrets useful so they are good although regret is a sorrowful emotion to have. Another point to bring up is that if i had the chance to go and fix these regrets, you know go back in time and do what i should have done i would definelty not go back and fix them. I am satisfied with how my life is, ofcourse there are things i would want to fix, things that maybe i would like to change but for multiple reasons these may not be able to be fixed now. But back to my regrets, regret 1 is something i did not do, regret 3 is something i did do but regret the outcome, which in someways is related to regret one, but the circumstances surrounding both events are far different and are difficult to really catagorize as the same type of event. And in many ways regret 3 may not even be a regret because i feel i did what was best, but then followed up poorly. So it may just be more of sadness and not regret. So regret 3 is up in the air, but for now it is still regret 3. Back to regret 1, another intersting aspect is that if the event that cuased regret one did not come out the way i regret it did, then stuff that happen like 5 months after the events of regret 1 would not have happened more than likly. And it would definetly seem that the events that happened 5 or some months after regret 1 was probably the best thing that has happened for me. So then how can i have regret 1, well the events 5 months or so after regret 1 was not a direct result of regret 1, just that becuase of how that regret 1 turned out the other events i was more likly to accept into my life. Regret 2 has definetly taught me much and i feel i am doing much better in that aspect of my life this time around. So that is good. And like i said regret 3 may or may not be a real feeling of regret but it came up when i was thinking about regret. HA lets see how many people can follow that paragraph about my life. That is all i have to say about that topic, i dont expect anything that i typed here today to really be amazingly deep, but it is fun thinking about topics like this.
Now more on my 3 regrets from my life, which i will talk about but not give any names or places becuase they are personal and personal thing should be talked about personally. One interesting aspect about my regrets is that i dont feel bad in anyway of having them; like i said i find these regrets useful so they are good although regret is a sorrowful emotion to have. Another point to bring up is that if i had the chance to go and fix these regrets, you know go back in time and do what i should have done i would definelty not go back and fix them. I am satisfied with how my life is, ofcourse there are things i would want to fix, things that maybe i would like to change but for multiple reasons these may not be able to be fixed now. But back to my regrets, regret 1 is something i did not do, regret 3 is something i did do but regret the outcome, which in someways is related to regret one, but the circumstances surrounding both events are far different and are difficult to really catagorize as the same type of event. And in many ways regret 3 may not even be a regret because i feel i did what was best, but then followed up poorly. So it may just be more of sadness and not regret. So regret 3 is up in the air, but for now it is still regret 3. Back to regret 1, another intersting aspect is that if the event that cuased regret one did not come out the way i regret it did, then stuff that happen like 5 months after the events of regret 1 would not have happened more than likly. And it would definetly seem that the events that happened 5 or some months after regret 1 was probably the best thing that has happened for me. So then how can i have regret 1, well the events 5 months or so after regret 1 was not a direct result of regret 1, just that becuase of how that regret 1 turned out the other events i was more likly to accept into my life. Regret 2 has definetly taught me much and i feel i am doing much better in that aspect of my life this time around. So that is good. And like i said regret 3 may or may not be a real feeling of regret but it came up when i was thinking about regret. HA lets see how many people can follow that paragraph about my life. That is all i have to say about that topic, i dont expect anything that i typed here today to really be amazingly deep, but it is fun thinking about topics like this.