I switch the rules, you take advantage...
It's been a few days, I've started my internship at MPG had some fun with Jakey, Mitchell, Harvey and Danny Lanndy when they stopped over on monday, there are some pictures up on facebook, which has become really useful as far as sharing those things, at least for me.
I've spent three days at MPG for a totaly of about 16 hours or so, so I really don't have much more time than I did last summer, and the hours are a little odder since they start at 10 and end around 6 (save tuesdays and Thursdays which end at 8 and 4 respectively). The work environment is pretty good, the people are friendly and very relaxed and my workload doesn't seem too intense (actually I've pretty much been solidly busy, but it's engagin the parts of my brain that I don't usually use during work so I don't really seem to notice it so much). No one seems to concerned if I loag about for a little bit, reading Strunk and White while people put together the pages (after all, it's hard to copy edit nothing).
I spoke with Kate briefly yesterday, I guess things went as well as they usually do. I think that I got my point across about how I had felt, not as articulately as I would have wanted to. I guess I got the reaction that I expected, I mean, I had really hope that things would have gone a little bit better and that we could have been friends and seen how that went. I burned a lot of emotional bridges there, even if was never what I wanted to do, and while I think that it's reasonable for me to et a chance at demonstrating how I've changed (and all that results from that), bt it's largely on her end.
I've known for a long time that you can't make someone else change their heart, you can't make them forgive and forget as much as you might want them to. I'm never going to speak with her, or see her again and on one level, it's sad, but she's not the girl that I thought that I loved and isn't really worth anything but the most passive efforts. I feel a lot better about things though, having spoken to her, I cam away feeling a lot better about myself. It doesn't behoove me to pine over someone who isn't willing to see past mistakes, and some anguish, it doesn't behoove me to pine for someone, who as they stand right now doesn't really deserve someone as good as me.
I've spent three days at MPG for a totaly of about 16 hours or so, so I really don't have much more time than I did last summer, and the hours are a little odder since they start at 10 and end around 6 (save tuesdays and Thursdays which end at 8 and 4 respectively). The work environment is pretty good, the people are friendly and very relaxed and my workload doesn't seem too intense (actually I've pretty much been solidly busy, but it's engagin the parts of my brain that I don't usually use during work so I don't really seem to notice it so much). No one seems to concerned if I loag about for a little bit, reading Strunk and White while people put together the pages (after all, it's hard to copy edit nothing).
I spoke with Kate briefly yesterday, I guess things went as well as they usually do. I think that I got my point across about how I had felt, not as articulately as I would have wanted to. I guess I got the reaction that I expected, I mean, I had really hope that things would have gone a little bit better and that we could have been friends and seen how that went. I burned a lot of emotional bridges there, even if was never what I wanted to do, and while I think that it's reasonable for me to et a chance at demonstrating how I've changed (and all that results from that), bt it's largely on her end.
I've known for a long time that you can't make someone else change their heart, you can't make them forgive and forget as much as you might want them to. I'm never going to speak with her, or see her again and on one level, it's sad, but she's not the girl that I thought that I loved and isn't really worth anything but the most passive efforts. I feel a lot better about things though, having spoken to her, I cam away feeling a lot better about myself. It doesn't behoove me to pine over someone who isn't willing to see past mistakes, and some anguish, it doesn't behoove me to pine for someone, who as they stand right now doesn't really deserve someone as good as me.