I clean my room, or something like that...
I like this writing-more-often thing. It kinda sucks because a lot of my friends don't use this site anymore and have moved on to other sites. I don't like writing the same thing in four different journals just so everyone can read it. So I will just deal, and write in here. All those other people are missing out on my drama. Too bad.
So, to expand on something I wrote about in my last post, I feel shitty. Today, to fill up my empty time, and to fulfill one thing from my things-to-look-forward-to list, I ventured up to school to go for a swim. It was going excellent. I swam for 20-30 minutes and 600 yards. I was feeling good, so I went to get into the hot tub (the other part of my plan). It was amazing, kind of hot, but I stayed in for 10-15 minutes. I went back into the locker room to change. After changing I started to feel really lightheaded. I actually thought I was going to faint, so I went to sit down. But then I thought I was going to throw up so I went back into the bathroom. It sucked, my life was flashing before my eyes...almost. I imagined passing out sadly in a bathroom stall or on the floor of the locker room and being carried away by paramedics and recovering in a hospital with IVs in my arms. Finally, I felt okay enough to start walking around, and I leisurely made my way home. I think it has to do with my diet. I need to eat more and better things. Today, I've had a bowl of cereal that made me feel like puking. I think I'll make bowl of rice with peas and eggs for dinner. I hope I eat it. I don't know why I've felt like this lately. It will be nice to go home so my mommy can take care of me again. I'm obviously not good at doing it myself.
So, to expand on something I wrote about in my last post, I feel shitty. Today, to fill up my empty time, and to fulfill one thing from my things-to-look-forward-to list, I ventured up to school to go for a swim. It was going excellent. I swam for 20-30 minutes and 600 yards. I was feeling good, so I went to get into the hot tub (the other part of my plan). It was amazing, kind of hot, but I stayed in for 10-15 minutes. I went back into the locker room to change. After changing I started to feel really lightheaded. I actually thought I was going to faint, so I went to sit down. But then I thought I was going to throw up so I went back into the bathroom. It sucked, my life was flashing before my eyes...almost. I imagined passing out sadly in a bathroom stall or on the floor of the locker room and being carried away by paramedics and recovering in a hospital with IVs in my arms. Finally, I felt okay enough to start walking around, and I leisurely made my way home. I think it has to do with my diet. I need to eat more and better things. Today, I've had a bowl of cereal that made me feel like puking. I think I'll make bowl of rice with peas and eggs for dinner. I hope I eat it. I don't know why I've felt like this lately. It will be nice to go home so my mommy can take care of me again. I'm obviously not good at doing it myself.