If I don't stand my own ground, how can I find my own way out of this maze?
Things are looking up. I found my study guide for my final. I almost died when I thought I lost it. I've gotten some closure with the ex and I'm feeling better about that situation. Ideally, I still dream of him showing up at my door with flowers to confess his love for me. That may be wishful thinking, but I like my optimism. I do also want to see him soon, as friends, just because I think that will help me get over all this and quit thinking of him as that guy who broke up with me and start thinking of him as just a friend (that I happen to have a not-so-secret crush on.) Now all I have left to do is study. Ugh.