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Sunday night, I didn't sleep. I stayed up all night working and writing.
Monday was eventful, possibly for the aforementioned reason.
Two friends and I(I will refer to them by code name and nickname, respectively, so, Fourbeards* and Jerry) attempted to pick the lock on one of the mechanical rooms in our school's primary academic building, by means of pliers and a wire coat hanger.
. . .The weird thing about this is that the idea to do this, as well as the coat hanger, was mine. I'm extremely surprised at myself, honestly. Why the hell did I decide that was a good idea? Furthermore, I haven't really allowed myself to freak out about it, because Jerry was freaking out and it was my idea, so I needed to be all supportive and convince him to relax, and now that I don't, now that we have our punishment(10 hours of community service) and we know everything is fine and nothing bad is going to happen, now is when I get to freak out and wonder what is happening to me, and whether I have a positive opinion of the person I'm becoming. I'm behaving in many ways lately that I've never really allowed myself to behave in, and it's liberating, but it's crazy.
I'm feeling good now, though. I am finally coming to terms with a few things, the aforementioned included, as well as many of the things I discussed in previous posts. I just need to think about how I wish to change, and about whether that matches up with the ways in which I am already changing.
And now I must depart, as lab is in half an hour.
And you know what?
I love life, as crazy as it has been for me.
*This is probably less weird out of context than his other nicknames, honestly.
Monday was eventful, possibly for the aforementioned reason.
Two friends and I(I will refer to them by code name and nickname, respectively, so, Fourbeards* and Jerry) attempted to pick the lock on one of the mechanical rooms in our school's primary academic building, by means of pliers and a wire coat hanger.
. . .The weird thing about this is that the idea to do this, as well as the coat hanger, was mine. I'm extremely surprised at myself, honestly. Why the hell did I decide that was a good idea? Furthermore, I haven't really allowed myself to freak out about it, because Jerry was freaking out and it was my idea, so I needed to be all supportive and convince him to relax, and now that I don't, now that we have our punishment(10 hours of community service) and we know everything is fine and nothing bad is going to happen, now is when I get to freak out and wonder what is happening to me, and whether I have a positive opinion of the person I'm becoming. I'm behaving in many ways lately that I've never really allowed myself to behave in, and it's liberating, but it's crazy.
I'm feeling good now, though. I am finally coming to terms with a few things, the aforementioned included, as well as many of the things I discussed in previous posts. I just need to think about how I wish to change, and about whether that matches up with the ways in which I am already changing.
And now I must depart, as lab is in half an hour.
And you know what?
I love life, as crazy as it has been for me.
*This is probably less weird out of context than his other nicknames, honestly.