Long overdue.
I had been contemplating writing this epic journal entry for quite some time now but I just haven't had the time to sit down and do it. So many things have been keeping me busy lately and I am greatful for that. Im greatful that I haven't spent as much time on the internet as some people do, and that I don't use it as a venue or a tool to enhance/carry out my social life.
It has come to my attention several thousand times in my life, and several thousand more since the beginning of this year, that a vast majority of men and women should have never been born.
I may not make alot of money, I may not know exaclty what Im doing in college, but atleast im trying. Atleast the people I love and care about and associate myself with are trying. Atleast I have my values, and my morals, and my beliefs ... and I have my priorities straight. So many people walk aimlessly through their lives without a clue and I no longer wish to stand around and try to help.
I've given myself to so many people. I only have so many words and so much energy and time to spend trying to help. I no longer wish to associate with you. I don't want to see you. I don't want to know what you're doing or where you are, quite honestly.
Animals are abused every day, people lose their lives in drunk driving accidents, people lie to eachother, and lie to themselves, and while I have to witness it ... I don't want to associate with anyone who lives this way.
Anyone who knows me on a personal level knows im an overly kind and generous person but for those of you who think you know me because of what someone might tell you about be, I suggest you end your life, immediately.
Think for yourself.
Judge for yourself.
Do something.
Make a fucking difference.
Stop living your life through eachothers drama and nonsense and live today for tomorrow. Forget about the past. You're not better than anyone, and none of these people really care about you. You've driven away and given up the best friends you had to live a life you think is right for you. Swallow your pride and listen to the things you've been trying so hard not to hear. You're a fake, you're a fucking joke.
I really don't understand how you can wake up every day and look at yourself in the mirror and live with who you are.
The list is so long and so many of you remain nameless to me but If I could call you all out I would. You make me sick.
Just when I thought ALL of my friends were getting together and sharing the same interests, and enjoying eachothers company, and really being a family ... you took a wrong turn and I fucking hate you for it.
As for my friends, I love you all very, very much. With all of my heart.
I hope these people realize that they need to grow up, and keep their nose in their own business.
P.S. - I am better than you.
x r y a n x
It has come to my attention several thousand times in my life, and several thousand more since the beginning of this year, that a vast majority of men and women should have never been born.
I may not make alot of money, I may not know exaclty what Im doing in college, but atleast im trying. Atleast the people I love and care about and associate myself with are trying. Atleast I have my values, and my morals, and my beliefs ... and I have my priorities straight. So many people walk aimlessly through their lives without a clue and I no longer wish to stand around and try to help.
I've given myself to so many people. I only have so many words and so much energy and time to spend trying to help. I no longer wish to associate with you. I don't want to see you. I don't want to know what you're doing or where you are, quite honestly.
Animals are abused every day, people lose their lives in drunk driving accidents, people lie to eachother, and lie to themselves, and while I have to witness it ... I don't want to associate with anyone who lives this way.
Anyone who knows me on a personal level knows im an overly kind and generous person but for those of you who think you know me because of what someone might tell you about be, I suggest you end your life, immediately.
Think for yourself.
Judge for yourself.
Do something.
Make a fucking difference.
Stop living your life through eachothers drama and nonsense and live today for tomorrow. Forget about the past. You're not better than anyone, and none of these people really care about you. You've driven away and given up the best friends you had to live a life you think is right for you. Swallow your pride and listen to the things you've been trying so hard not to hear. You're a fake, you're a fucking joke.
I really don't understand how you can wake up every day and look at yourself in the mirror and live with who you are.
The list is so long and so many of you remain nameless to me but If I could call you all out I would. You make me sick.
Just when I thought ALL of my friends were getting together and sharing the same interests, and enjoying eachothers company, and really being a family ... you took a wrong turn and I fucking hate you for it.
As for my friends, I love you all very, very much. With all of my heart.
I hope these people realize that they need to grow up, and keep their nose in their own business.
P.S. - I am better than you.
x r y a n x