here goes.

[ryanblauer]

im supepr broke, and it sucks. my heart hurts and i feel so unnoticed by everyone around me that if i disappeared no one would bat an eye, why should i even try to be seen, why should i bother with anything? what is the point? i have lots of "friends" but really i just sit at home and do nothing because no one ever calls to hang out and i dont really know anyone to call up and just hang out with, i feel so lonely, all i do is sit on my damn computer and look at art and do homework, i never go out, i never go anywhere, partly because im broke and partly because i dont really have anyone to hang out with. all my friends that i do have are out of town, or busy. no one calls to just hang out anymore.

i feel so worthless, i want to accomplish something but dont know what or how. guess i wont.

ARG!