bleh

[ryananthony]

spending the new year alone gave me lots of time to think about things. i honestly don't know what to do anymore. i'm wondering why i'm still here, what the fuck my purpose is in this world. why am i so fucking lonely? what's wrong with me? i don't know. i just know i'm sick and tired of feeling this way.

i've done nothing but think about her for the past few days. i can't get this off of my mind. i don't know what to do. :/

fuck.