I'm Barely Here
Taking another page out of Kristin's book, I have yet to sleep in a couple days now. Maybe I'm finding that there really is to much noise inside and outside my head to even attempt sleep. It could just be your everyday, ordinary case of insomnia though. I'm not sure but even if I try, it doesn't come. I've been pulling it off though so I guess as long as I can, I will. And then maybe I'll sink to over the counter drug use, shame on me. ;)
Charisma has been amazing the past few days. She's helped more then I could ever probably say. I have done little to nothing while I was here with her. She would already be up and about in the kitchen or living room with Ryan by the time I got myself ready and down the stairs. I'd pry him from her arms for a little while so she could get some stuff done. We got up to 15 minutes without bawling for Mommy at one point. And with all the things going on for her to do, she's still managed to take care of me in some ways. When I told her I was going back to the apartment, she tried once again to get me to go to Italy which would be completely awesome but after my 4 day break, I have stuff piling up on me. She handed me dinners she had frozen for me as I walked out the door this morning with a smile smile. Reminded me to take care of myself and call if I needed her.
I'm back to the apartment tonight to see how that one is going to go. I had a few things to do today and some more tomorrow but basically nothing this weekend. I don't know when Maggie is getting in but I'll be here til then and probably a little longer. I'm hoping to catch up with Kristin sometime this weekend cause I think she's still around. And after that well...like I told Maggie yesterday all my thoughts have been incomplete lately and I guess I'm holding true to that now.
Charisma has been amazing the past few days. She's helped more then I could ever probably say. I have done little to nothing while I was here with her. She would already be up and about in the kitchen or living room with Ryan by the time I got myself ready and down the stairs. I'd pry him from her arms for a little while so she could get some stuff done. We got up to 15 minutes without bawling for Mommy at one point. And with all the things going on for her to do, she's still managed to take care of me in some ways. When I told her I was going back to the apartment, she tried once again to get me to go to Italy which would be completely awesome but after my 4 day break, I have stuff piling up on me. She handed me dinners she had frozen for me as I walked out the door this morning with a smile smile. Reminded me to take care of myself and call if I needed her.
I'm back to the apartment tonight to see how that one is going to go. I had a few things to do today and some more tomorrow but basically nothing this weekend. I don't know when Maggie is getting in but I'll be here til then and probably a little longer. I'm hoping to catch up with Kristin sometime this weekend cause I think she's still around. And after that well...like I told Maggie yesterday all my thoughts have been incomplete lately and I guess I'm holding true to that now.