What makes sense is always debateable.
There's so much to be said and yet the words stay on my tongue, bitter and harsh to the ear and the heart.
There's a reason behind everything and I had mine but to say them would be pointless, I don't think anyone would believe them anyway. There's wasn't much said when she picked up her things. I half expected to see a ring fly at my head, to have her scream and yell or anything but I know her better then that. It was a calm exit, a graceful exit, and ended with a tentative hug. My hands shaking and feeling a sting throughout my body, I let go. There's a story deeper then what everyone else knows and it's between her and I. It will stay that way, it always will.
To sum up my feelings right now, I would have to say numb fits pretty well. My answering machine was filled only the day after it ended and I was amazed once again at how quick news can travel. There were the people who think they know better, calling and saying I made the biggest mistake of my life. Calling me blind and stupid. At this point, I would most likely agree. Kristin, of course, offering support but I don't have the heart to call her back. I don't deserve any of the kind words she has to offer right now.
I'll see Maggie tomorrow but I doubt I'll have the heart to say the words that seem to have stuck themselves to the tip of my tongue.
[It kind of sucks coming into a story line like this, ok it really sucks. I expect at least a few people dislike my character right about now. Anyway, I'm up for it or I wouldn't have taken this character but I'm hoping for a smooth transition at the very least. I'd like to talk to "Maggie" soon, if possible. I should be around sometime tonight. As you can see, keeping the journal and same sn for now. I might change the sn later on.]
There's a reason behind everything and I had mine but to say them would be pointless, I don't think anyone would believe them anyway. There's wasn't much said when she picked up her things. I half expected to see a ring fly at my head, to have her scream and yell or anything but I know her better then that. It was a calm exit, a graceful exit, and ended with a tentative hug. My hands shaking and feeling a sting throughout my body, I let go. There's a story deeper then what everyone else knows and it's between her and I. It will stay that way, it always will.
To sum up my feelings right now, I would have to say numb fits pretty well. My answering machine was filled only the day after it ended and I was amazed once again at how quick news can travel. There were the people who think they know better, calling and saying I made the biggest mistake of my life. Calling me blind and stupid. At this point, I would most likely agree. Kristin, of course, offering support but I don't have the heart to call her back. I don't deserve any of the kind words she has to offer right now.
I'll see Maggie tomorrow but I doubt I'll have the heart to say the words that seem to have stuck themselves to the tip of my tongue.
[It kind of sucks coming into a story line like this, ok it really sucks. I expect at least a few people dislike my character right about now. Anyway, I'm up for it or I wouldn't have taken this character but I'm hoping for a smooth transition at the very least. I'd like to talk to "Maggie" soon, if possible. I should be around sometime tonight. As you can see, keeping the journal and same sn for now. I might change the sn later on.]