Almost time.
I have 21 days before I leave for Boot Camp. For some reason, after reading the latest batch of my friends posts, I feel really down. It's a feeling that I get when I think about having a girlfriend. I haven't had one since I broke up with Gena last summer, and I had to watch, all my senior year, most of my friends walk aroud with their girlfriends and hold hands and kiss. Some of my friends have rubbed it in my face that they have had sex with their girlfriends. I really miss that feeling, to have someone like that (not that I know what it's like to have sex, which frustrates me even more! I was hoping to lose my virginity before leaving for Boot Camp, but that's not gonna happen.). And I know it's way too late to ask anyone here out now because there's no way we'd be able to see each other a lot since I'll be stationed in San Diego until I'm out of the Navy. Fuck, I hate this! This feeling of not having a girlfriend! It's like torture!!!