go away ------>
i haven't updated this in a few days and i haven't even been to the message boards in forever but i am just updating this to get it off my chest. alright,i really wish people could come to your face with things instead of lying and talking shit behind your back. i mean i don't know..why do people be nice to you and then just talk shit? if you hate me, tell me...if you hate me that's great good for you,life goes on. but at least don't pretend to like me if you hate my guts or think something about me that isn't true. i mean and for me to get all the blame of what "happened" placed on me is fucked up. i take responsiblity for my part but if you think it doesn't take two people for what happened to happen you're so wrong. i'm not some evil little asshole out to ruin anyones lives or harp on something that is long over. i thought we had all moved past that but no apparently not. if i can make up with an ex that i thought hated my guts for all of eternity and if i can forgive them after they said a bunch of shit and lies about me i thought one day you'd get over yourself and be my friend again because nothing that life alteringly drastic happened between us but obviously that is never going to fucking happen because you want to hold grudges and think i give a shit about you in a way that is more than friendly and i don't. i just missed talking to you as a friend only-and admit it we joked around a lot and made each other laugh and it was great and i missed having a friend like that but apparently that makes me "obsessed". whatever i have things to do that don't involve being obsessed because to be honest i couldn't give a shit less about you or what you say anymore, despite rambling for a whole entry about it, because it just pisses me off you could think that and that you could put all the blame on me and not look at all at his faults in it, i'm just glad you hate my band because i don't want someone like you as a fan anyway. fuck you for that, i am not my band and my actions shouldn't be taken against my music or my bandmates but yeah go ahead and hate my band because of your insecurities. now that is off my chest i am done with this entry, thanks.- ryan